4:45 Am oohh..i really love posting blogs.. i love writing (or typing rather..) cause this is how i express myself.. how i feel.. it was really never easy for me telling how i truly feel.. i believe that telling someone i love him will make me look stupid or something.. Telling other people that im hurt makes me look WEAK.. and that’s one thing I really don’t like, being feeble.., its pathetic.
but now, im prepared to tell the world (well, at least for those who are reading my blogs) that im hurt.. sShhHhh.. (don’t tell anybody, this is just between the two of us.. ok? Hehe..) whew, this is really hard for me, declaring that im hurt.. cause its actually odd.. I admit, I had several or plenty of relationships before and I don’t actually get hurt or get hurt this much.. I was really scared to be so in love and get serious because im always afraid of getting hurt.. Takot ako sa idea na dehado o talo ako after a relationship.. That’s why, I always make sure na di ako yung talo or I always get even.. Before I fall deeply inlove, iniiwasan ko na.. (sorry to those who were victims of my foolishness) But suddenly, I got tired and decided to try getting serious in a relationship, so I told myself na sa next relationship na papasukan ko, I will be serious na and ill give the best love that I can give.. Sabi ko, I just want to give it a shot and see whats going to happen, anyway based on experience mabilis naman ako mag-move on.. (sa nging pag-iyak ko rin before where I made sure were even…woosshh..).. And then he came, di ako nag succeed sa sinabi ko na ill give my best but surely totoo yung sinabi ko na ill give all the love that I can.. Minahal ko sya, sobra.. But again, I failed of showing how I really feel.. Di ko masyadong napakita if how much I love him pero I tried, and napakita ko rin naman in some ways..
And then, we drifted apart.. I don’t actually know what happened between us.. But one things for sure, I did get hurt a lot..so much.. And yun nga, I divulge, it still hurts..
I don’t know if its karma.. Well, maybe it is.. Sorry to those people na na-hurt ko before.. I didn’t mean.. Maybe im just too afraid to get hurt that’s why without my intention, I was able to hurt you.. sorry for my idiocy.. Sabi ko before, ill try to be serious, and if we fall apart, at least its not because of me..not my fault. And yun nga ang nangyari..but I got hurt.. Before the relationship, naisip ko na na masasaktan ako, but I still entered it.. Telling myself na its natural to get your heart broken.. sa laro, di ikaw ang palaging panalo..minsan talo ka. Yeah, for me, its like a game.. but before, I always make sure that I win.. Even if winning the game means cheating.. But this time, I told myself that ill be ready to lose. But matatalo ako na malinis ang konsensya ko.. I didn’t cheat, I didn’t deceive him..
Tama ba ginawa ko? Yes, I think so.. But I just cant promise that I would still be like that next time..
Don’t laugh, I know I look stupid for saying all these stuffs.. I just want to write these things down, because its easier than telling it.. Its really not in my nature to say this.. And I never even anticipated saying this.. being hurt for me is weak.. and I don’t want to be one. But, I did. I sucked this time. FS. And maybe, if you did read this and ask me about this in person, I would just smile and not react, or even deny it. This keyboard is the only thing na masasabihan ko ngayon..
Enough of this stupidity, anyway, im already in the process of recovering.. And actually, im thinking of getting even.. Shoul i? No, maybe I wont.. Umm, next time, ganito parin ba ko or balik na sa dati? Hmmm..hehe.. Well see..
This is our secret..okay? I don’t want the world to know that I got hurt.. that im WEAK. and for you... thank you and sorry.. but please, i know that we drifted apart for an unexplainable reason (mahirap talaga xa i-explain so i just wont), but dont come around telling me that you still love me and you still care. yes, maybe you do, but im just not sure if we can be friends and act like we did before.. im not yet over you, and im not yet ready.. gusto ko magalit sau, but i just cant.. yung pinapakita ko sayo ngeon na friendship, is just ka-plastican.. pinapakitaan kita ng matino dahil my kelangan pa ko sau.. (out of the topic ung klngan ko na un..hehe) but when its done, all i can say is, goodbye.. we can still be friends, but not now, someday.
4:45 Am oohh..i really love posting blogs.. i love writing (or typing rather..) cause this is how i express myself.. how i feel.. it was really never easy for me telling how i truly feel.. i believe that telling someone i love him will make me look stupid or something.. Telling other people that im hurt makes me look WEAK.. and that’s one thing I really don’t like, being feeble.., its pathetic.
but now, im prepared to tell the world (well, at least for those who are reading my blogs) that im hurt.. sShhHhh.. (don’t tell anybody, this is just between the two of us.. ok? Hehe..) whew, this is really hard for me, declaring that im hurt.. cause its actually odd.. I admit, I had several or plenty of relationships before and I don’t actually get hurt or get hurt this much.. I was really scared to be so in love and get serious because im always afraid of getting hurt.. Takot ako sa idea na dehado o talo ako after a relationship.. That’s why, I always make sure na di ako yung talo or I always get even.. Before I fall deeply inlove, iniiwasan ko na.. (sorry to those who were victims of my foolishness) But suddenly, I got tired and decided to try getting serious in a relationship, so I told myself na sa next relationship na papasukan ko, I will be serious na and ill give the best love that I can give.. Sabi ko, I just want to give it a shot and see whats going to happen, anyway based on experience mabilis naman ako mag-move on.. (sa nging pag-iyak ko rin before where I made sure were even…woosshh..).. And then he came, di ako nag succeed sa sinabi ko na ill give my best but surely totoo yung sinabi ko na ill give all the love that I can.. Minahal ko sya, sobra.. But again, I failed of showing how I really feel.. Di ko masyadong napakita if how much I love him pero I tried, and napakita ko rin naman in some ways..
And then, we drifted apart.. I don’t actually know what happened between us.. But one things for sure, I did get hurt a lot..so much.. And yun nga, I divulge, it still hurts..
I don’t know if its karma.. Well, maybe it is.. Sorry to those people na na-hurt ko before.. I didn’t mean.. Maybe im just too afraid to get hurt that’s why without my intention, I was able to hurt you.. sorry for my idiocy.. Sabi ko before, ill try to be serious, and if we fall apart, at least its not because of me..not my fault. And yun nga ang nangyari..but I got hurt.. Before the relationship, naisip ko na na masasaktan ako, but I still entered it.. Telling myself na its natural to get your heart broken.. sa laro, di ikaw ang palaging panalo..minsan talo ka. Yeah, for me, its like a game.. but before, I always make sure that I win.. Even if winning the game means cheating.. But this time, I told myself that ill be ready to lose. But matatalo ako na malinis ang konsensya ko.. I didn’t cheat, I didn’t deceive him..
Tama ba ginawa ko? Yes, I think so.. But I just cant promise that I would still be like that next time..
Don’t laugh, I know I look stupid for saying all these stuffs.. I just want to write these things down, because its easier than telling it.. Its really not in my nature to say this.. And I never even anticipated saying this.. being hurt for me is weak.. and I don’t want to be one. But, I did. I sucked this time. FS. And maybe, if you did read this and ask me about this in person, I would just smile and not react, or even deny it. This keyboard is the only thing na masasabihan ko ngayon..
Enough of this stupidity, anyway, im already in the process of recovering.. And actually, im thinking of getting even.. Shoul i? No, maybe I wont.. Umm, next time, ganito parin ba ko or balik na sa dati? Hmmm..hehe.. Well see..
This is our secret..okay? I don’t want the world to know that I got hurt.. that im WEAK. and for you... thank you and sorry.. but please, i know that we drifted apart for an unexplainable reason (mahirap talaga xa i-explain so i just wont), but dont come around telling me that you still love me and you still care. yes, maybe you do, but im just not sure if we can be friends and act like we did before.. im not yet over you, and im not yet ready.. gusto ko magalit sau, but i just cant.. yung pinapakita ko sayo ngeon na friendship, is just ka-plastican.. pinapakitaan kita ng matino dahil my kelangan pa ko sau.. (out of the topic ung klngan ko na un..hehe) but when its done, all i can say is, goodbye.. we can still be friends, but not now, someday.
I've been blogging since 2004 and I'm stillexisting.
I’m a rocker, and a party girl.
I’m sad, also I’m happy.
I’m a good friend; along with I’m your worst enemy.
I cheat, yet I love.
I hurt other people, thus I always get broken.
I’m weak, but I’m strong.
I’m nice, yet I’m mean.
I suck, but I rock!
this is MILES, this is ME..
I AM...
delusional. stupid at times. a jerk sometimes. slightly sensitive. a brat. short-tempered. used to getting what I want, if I don’t, I’m furious. the event organizer. mysterious to some. a snob to many. trustworthy. a good friend. already quit drinking. don’t smoke. complicated.
My Names:
Miles -- to most people I know.
Darla -- to my group mates. you know the movie Finding Nemo? Brat -- to my group mates and to some friends.
Zeb, Bez, Best -- to my Best friends.
Otso -- to some of my High School Friends.
Ning -- to my Dad.
LOVES
pizza
pasta
tacos
nachos
grilled squid
coffee
chocolate cakes
sisig
ONE TREE HILL
Gossip Girl
HATES siopao
diningding paksiw shell fish
pineapple
DESIRES
TOP the BOARD EXAM because of HIS help update: I didn't top, but I passed it. Of course, because of His help.
new phone from Kuya Z. update: I have a new phone. Thank you Kuya Z.
meet new people
attend gym class
get a temporary good-paying job
update: I have a not-so-temporary, not-so-good paying job.
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Hi There! I'm MILES, a future REGISTERED NURSE. Random Thoughts of a registered nurse, a friend, a daughter, a music lover, a party-goer and a servant of God. Any similarity to someone else's blog post is purely a coincidence.
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