To My Bride

“Shoulder pads may come and go but a BFF is forever. Because even when you’re not sure where you’re headed, it helps to know that you’re not going there alone.”

--Gossip Girl Episode 24 Valley Girls

Weeks ago, I received a news—my best friend is getting married. I felt ecstatic because she told me that I will be her maid-of-honor. Yey. Years ago, we had a conversation about our weddings; we agreed that we would be each others' maid-of-honor. And now, she’s keeping her promise. I’ve been a bridesmaid few times but this is the first time that I would be a maid-of-honor, and of course, I feel delighted and thrilled about it.

Ever since that day, I started missing her already although she just lives a few blocks away from our home. We’ve been best friends for about 8 years now. We know almost if not every thing about each other. We were constantly together until I got busy with college, but we still shared that mutual bond. In good times, we are on each others' side. If trouble arises, we got each others' back.

And since that news about the wedding, I marveled what’s next. After their nuptial, she would move to another place with her husband. And I feel gloomy thinking about it. Am I a bad best friend because I sense sadness and jealousy?

The other day I invited her out. We watched Harry Potter and ate until we nearly puked. It’s my pre-wedding treat. We shared new secrets, laughed and had fun. I wonder if we would still have moments like that after their wedding.

I long for her already. I am happy for her, but you can’t blame me if I feel a bit heavyhearted, right?