INAMORATA

SIDEDRIP.

2010-11-16T13:22:00.003+08:00

SOULMATE

2010-11-10T17:44:00.001+08:00

Dear Soul mate,

I might have met you or not, but I just want to say...

Thank you, 'coz I know when that time comes you're gonna be the reason for my happiness and...

Sorry, if you didn't get to be my first but I promise to give you LOVE that will LAST 4 a lifetime... That's a PROMISE (pinkie swear).

From YOUR girl FOREVER :)

--repost from FB.

SOMEDAY

2010-11-08T13:30:00.001+08:00

November 1's LIGHT

2010-11-01T17:26:00.002+08:00

Death is inevitable. I've seen many of it. In the form of the elderly, children, and innocent infants. There were times when they aggressively fight for that one life, but that one life just ends. There were times when they simply give up and just sign DNR, but that one soul keeps on holding on. There are some who get hold of the opportunity to have anticipatory grieving. But for some, it comes to them instantly like a thief in the night. No matter how or when it comes, it doesn't depend on how aggressive or faint-hearted they are, because whatever choice they make, whatever interventions we do, it's all up to Him.

And today, on November 1st, I've seen another one.

September '09 to September '10

2010-10-31T13:23:00.006+08:00

I realized that I was not able to blog for a YEAR. Now looking back at those 12 months, here are some few updates..

After that last post about the famous ONDOY, I've been busy with trainings concerning my Profession. I did volunteer a bit for Red Cross to help the Ondoy victims. I've been a bum for 3 more months then I got accepted as a nurse trainee. I did work hard and after few months, I eventually became a staff nurse. Until now, I'm still working there.

Ever since I started working, I felt like I've been sluggish. I still manage to hang out with my family and friends but I spend most of my time sleeping and taking rest at home, which is not who I am. I've been close to temptations and married to stress. Life, as it is, became more complicated. You ask if I'm happy with the job? I can't give you the definite answer. But if you ask if I hate it? I'd say no.

Family life had been different. My dad and brother came home from abroad for good. It feels good that we are almost complete here at home, but I guess the many years of being apart affects the reationship. But we are, generally happy.

Love? I still have them, those guys who you can call 'suitors', but .. yes, BUTS. And I've had this 'something-that-maybe-doesn't-mean-anything' with someone. It ended just before it started. No regrets, somehow glad it happened.

Each day has a blessing. The day itself is. Those 12 months were. But looking back, I know and feel that something's lacking.

The past 12 months had been diverse. Life outside the academe, as I've said, is way more complicated. But that's just the way it is, we have to live with it. Be thankful for each day, for another year. Live life, love life.

ONE

2010-10-27T10:24:00.004+08:00

"At this moment,there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred,

18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world.

Some are running scared.. some are coming home.

Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth.

Some are evil men at war with good,& some are good struggling with evil.

6billion people in d world, 6 bllion souls, & sometimes..

all u need is ONE."

--One Tree Hill

Pano?

2010-09-18T10:24:00.003+08:00

Matagal na rin pala mula nung huli akong sumulat.

Madami akong nais sabihin.

Kung hindi ko alam kung pano,

hindi ko alam kung pano.

Bagyong Ondoy

2009-09-28T23:33:00.005+08:00

This is the first time, in my 20 years of existence, that a flood like this happened in our area. Good thing that our street was not affected.

The effect of typhoon Ondoy is really devastating, we all know it. Photos and videos are disturbing, it's really extremely upsetting.

As of now, I am still worried because I still didn't receive a message from my best friend and close friends from Marikina and Malabon. My relatives from Greenpark, Cainta are okay and they stayed here in our home for a while. We also have a relative somewhere in Cainta and still no news from them.

:(

While today, I received my board rating from PRC. And I was happy about the result. But after the happiness, the painful truth about this calamity took me over.

In both emotions, I just prayed.

Procrastination ends?

2009-09-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I told my self that TODAY is the deadline of my procrastination. I wanted to end my bummer days.

I woke up early today to look for a job. But when I made my first call, I realized that today is a holiday. Haha.

Oh well, maybe tomorrow.

Si RAHAB

2009-09-20T21:13:00.001+08:00

Sa patuloy na paglalakbay ng mga Israelita, nagpadala si Joshua ng dalawang espiya sa Jerico upang manmanan ang bayan.

Tumuloy sila sa bahay ni Rahab, na kinikilalang babaeng makasalanan.

Nalaman ng hari ang pagpasok ng mga lalaking taga-labas. Kaya't nagpadala ito ng mga alagad sa bahay ni Rahab.

Nang dumating ang mga ito, isinampa ni Rahab ang mga sugo sa bubong at tinakpan ng puno ng lino.

Nang sya ay tanungin ng mga alagad, sinabi nyang umalis na ang dalawa at nakatakbo na papalayo.

Nagpasalamat ang mga sugo kay Rahab. At pagkatapos ay si Rahab naman ang nakiusap, na kung maaari ay iligtas nila ang kanyang sambahayan sa nalalapit na pagsakop ng mga Israelita.

Pumayag ang mga sugo, at ng dumating ang pagsakop ay tanging sambahayan lamang ni Rahab ang nakaligtas.

Si Rahab, isang babaeng itinuturing na makasalanan, madumi, ngunit dahil sa kanyang pagyakap sa sugo ay iniligtas sya ng Dios.

Overdue post. Share ko lang yung narining ko sa children's worship service weeks ago.

FEU ruled the 2009 UAAP cheerdance competition

2009-09-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

YEHEYYYYYY.

That's all I can say.

Though I wasn't able to watch it, I was ecstatic when I read the tons of messages that I received.

I am speechless, really.

So just tell me if you know when the replay will be. :)

13 oras, kapalit ng 5 segundo

2009-09-08T18:55:00.002+08:00

September 5, 2009

1:51pm -

Enter the university, umpisa ng pagpila, univ grounds, akyat ng 4th floor (high school), Building A to B.

3:53pm -

Baba ng 3rd floor, Building B to A, baba ng 2nd floor, Building A to B.

5:48pm -

Baba ng 1st floor.

6:18pm -

Out of High school Building.

6:25pm -

Enter college building.

6:30pm -

Reached 4th floor.

6:38pm -

Enter University Gym (4th floor).

8:33pm -

Nakalabas ng gym. 4th floor, baba sa 3rd, 2nd, 1st floor.

September 6, 2009

1:42AM -

Nakalabas ng college Building.

1:52AM -

Nakalabas ng university, Central Avenue.

2:45AM -

Enter gate ng Templo.

Pila, tayo, upo, lakad, takbo, antok, pagod, ulan, gutom. 3 beses din ako nabigyan ng plastic, na may lamang 2 cupcake/fudgee bar, juice, candy. 1 beses nabigyan ng dinner na pinilahan ng 2 oras nila kuya.

Pumila ako kahit mag-isa ako, walang kasama, walang kakilala, para lang masilayan sya.

13 oras ng pagpila at paghihintay, kapalit ng 5 segundo ng huling pagsilay sa kanya.

Ganun ata talaga kapag mahal mo ang isang tao, handa ka mag sakripisyo.

September 7, 2009

Ilang oras na nakatayo sa ilalim ng ulan, masilayan lang ang paghahatid sa kanyang huling hantungan. Ngawit, pagod, gutom, buhos ng ulan at buhos ng luha.

Diretso sa Pampanga, para naman sa pagpanaw ng isang kamag-anak.

Linggo ng pagdadalamhati. Hanggang kailan, hanggang kailan?

Bapang Danny

2009-09-04T17:08:00.002+08:00

A relative just passed away.

This is a very sad week.

Sad Tuesday Morning, Keep the faith

2009-09-01T11:15:00.003+08:00

This morning, my mom waked me up with a bad news. I couldn’t believe it. I do not want to believe it. He, the respected, passed away.

I met him twice or thrice. The most memorable one, when he put his arms on my head, as if giving me a blessing.

I am not a relative, but I shed tears. Up to now, I couldn’t stop the tears. My heart is broken into pieces. But the faith is standing still.

It’s hard to believe, difficult to accept, but now, all I can do is pray.

UPDATE:

Now home. Had a great time with Best friends. They made me smile and laugh. But at the end of the day, I still have a heavy heart.

The Wedding

2009-08-26T14:10:00.000+08:00

Photo from yesterday.

Felt like I now lost my best friend. My number one, accessible, and convenient confidant and outlet is now many miles away from me.

Save The Planet

2009-08-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

The person who made this has a point. We, the people, are to blame for what’s happening in our mother earth.

Oh yes, it’s not going anywhere. But it’s slowly deteriorating. Ever heard of climate change and global warming?

We can’t bring the earth back to its original health status but we can still prevent further damage. And I agree that most of the human inhabitants of this earth are the problem. Start the change within ourselves, that’s how we can save the planet.

I got this photo from a plurk friend.

Pulitika

2009-08-08T23:04:00.001+08:00

To understand the importance of 1 week, ask a person who just won Filipino Blog of The Week contest. (week 172) HAHAHA.

Thank you to everyone who gave me their support. Big thanks to everyone who voted. Especially to those who voted more than once. And of course, thank you The Composed Gentleman for choosing me as a nominee.

This is my first contest in the blogosphere, and since I was nominated, I wanted to end the week by winning.

Wala man ito magarbong premyo, masarap pa rin ang pakiramdam kapag nanalo ka. Dahil dito, naintindihan ko na mahirap pala talaga kumandidato. Sa pangangampanya, kailangan mo ng madaming baon; pasensya, tyaga, at sa totoong buhay—pera. Kailangan mo din mambola. Oo, nambola pa ko makakuha lang ng boto.

Kapag malapit na matapos ang botohan, nakakakaba, nakakatakot din. Lalo na kung may mahigpit kang kumpetensya. Maiisip mo kung may katuturan ba lahat ang pagod mo.

Masarap kapag nanalo ka. At malamang malungkot kapag natalo ka.

Sa panahong ito na sa susunod na taon ee botohan na, marami tayong nakikita na maaga pa ee masigasig na mangampanya. Ngayon pa lang gumagastos na, nagtyatyaga, at nambobola na. Nakakabilib ang pagiging masigasig.
Bakit kaya? Para gamitin ang kapangyarihan sa pagtulong sa taumbayan at sa pagsulong ng bansa? O gamitin ang kapangyarin para bawiin lahat ng ginastos at para kumita pa?

Xs: Muli ay nominated ako para sa Week 173. Pero sa pagkakataong ito, di na ko mangangampanya gaya ng nakaraang linggo. Nakakatamad at nakakpagod din ee. Malamang hindi ako pwede sa pulitika.

It's just random // August 3, 09

2009-08-03T23:20:00.005+08:00

Gratitude

Before anything else, I want to give big thanks to CHUCK(an indecent mind), MANIK REIGUN and RICH for leaving some comments on my previous post entitled ‘Now what?’. Those wisecracks are actually helpful, thank you for wasting time to read and comment. It’s genuinely appreciated.

I also want to be grateful to The Composed Gentleman for making me a nominee in his Filipino Blog of The Week contest (week 172). This is my first contest in the Blogosphere, and I want to thank those who voted for me, especially to those who voted twice or more. And thank you in advance to those who would vote.

CLICK HERE TO VOTE. On the right side bar, you can find a POLL.
PLEASE vote for DELUSIONSNARCISSISTIC. Big thanks!

xs: Voting is everyday so if you are online everyday, please do vote.

Singer

Oh yes, I am a frustrated songster. And I am delighted that I was able to sing in Araneta Coliseum, the Philippines’ big dome.

Go ahead, find me if you can.

But, I was part of a choir. Hehe. But it’s okay, it’s a rare experience.

Boat ride

We are back from our visit to Pampanga. It was our auntie’s birthday. We rode a small boat on our way there, although we have other options like jeepney or tricylcle, we just rode a boat because my sister was thrilled to ride it. I am worried every time we would ride a boat to cross that river, I’m not a good swimmer (I only learned how to swim because of our PE subject) and when I was young, I nearly drowned!

New

My brother Kuya Z who is in Australia gave me money. And I bought a new phone.
Gossip girl fan ee? I sought after Blair’s phone which is LG enV2 but I found out that it is a CDMA phone so I can’t use it here. So I decided to buy Jenny Humphrey’s phone which is HTC touch, but it’s not available anymore so I bought Viva. It’s cheap, but I like it so much.

Thank you Kuya.

My sister said “I’ll give you a month, for sure after that, you’ll lose that phone again. Haha."
Trust me, I am more careful now.

Huge Respect

By the way, this is overwhelming. Got this photo from a plurk friend.

Farewell Mrs. President

2009-08-02T22:01:00.006+08:00

I saw this coming because of her condition. But despite the anticipatory grieving, the Philippines was saddened by former President Corazon Aquino’s death yesterday.

This is the least thing I could do, to tie a yellow ribbon on my blog.
And another is to be brave like her in every situation I am, in every way I can.

To the brave woman who regained the Philippines’ democracy, to our country’s first woman president, may you rest in peace.
UPDATE: I just want to add something; she is the first woman president in Asia. And I also learned that she is my schoolmate because she studied law in the same university where I graduated from but she gave up law eventually.

Now what?

2009-07-30T22:57:00.005+08:00

I have been consistently complaining about my monotony, about getting tired of being a bum.
Last June, I was training on a certain call center in Ortigas. But on my 4th night, I quit because I had to attend an important event. But no regrets at all, besides, we heard bad stuffs about that company.

Since that training, I’ve been receiving calls from different call centers. Apparently my friends have been referring me but I’ve been ignoring those calls. I chose to just remain at home, watching TV, surfing the net, spending time with friends, attending church and enjoying my vacation. And just last Saturday, the long wait for the Board Exam result is over. And I’m delighted with the result.

Just this morning, I received another call from a call center. And I passed the initial (phone) interview. Tssss.. Although my English is poor. And I’m scheduled for another exam. But I’ve decided not to go to their office in Libis tomorrow. Why?
First, my mom, sister and I have plans on visiting our relatives in Pampanga tomorrow. And I’ve been dying to smell fresh air. Second reason is laziness. Oo, tinatamad pa rin akong mag-apply! And third is I’m still in doubt if what do I really want to do with my life.

Last month, I told myself na if I get hired in a call center, I would grab it, work there for months. Then try my luck sa Nursing after earning money sa Call center industry. But now na RN na ko, parang I suddenly changed my mind. I have goals and plans in my life na of course, I want to achieve. And I don’t want to waste time. But I am still confused if where to start.

Masteral? Trainings? NCLEX, IELTS etc? Apply?
And sa totoo lang, I’m hell scared. Of what? Of working! That would be my first time to be fully ‘independent’ and just the thought of it scares the hell out of me. I know kaya ko yun, but I know that it will be awfully difficult for me.
Nakakagana isipin ang mga pangarap mo, pero pag tinamaan ka na ng katamaran, ay peste. Hehe.

As of now, asikasuhin ko muna oath taking. Then after that, yun na.
Any advices from you guys? Lalo yung mga nasa workforce na?

Registered Nurse

2009-07-25T22:56:00.008+08:00

I am now a REGISTERED NURSE.

God is sooo good.
Glory be to God. Praise Him.

I am euphoric, ecstatic whatever! But, at the same time gloomy because I have friends and block mates who didn’t make it.

But, everything has a reason. Believe in His perfect plans.
Keep the faith.

For the complete list of passers, click here.

xs:
Oh, I have to update my profiles from 'Future Nurse' to 'Registered Nurse' Yey.

To My Bride

2009-07-22T17:47:00.006+08:00

“Shoulder pads may come and go but a BFF is forever. Because even when you’re not sure where you’re headed, it helps to know that you’re not going there alone.”

--Gossip Girl Episode 24 Valley Girls

Weeks ago, I received a news—my best friend is getting married. I felt ecstatic because she told me that I will be her maid-of-honor. Yey. Years ago, we had a conversation about our weddings; we agreed that we would be each others' maid-of-honor. And now, she’s keeping her promise. I’ve been a bridesmaid few times but this is the first time that I would be a maid-of-honor, and of course, I feel delighted and thrilled about it.

Ever since that day, I started missing her already although she just lives a few blocks away from our home. We’ve been best friends for about 8 years now. We know almost if not every thing about each other. We were constantly together until I got busy with college, but we still shared that mutual bond. In good times, we are on each others' side. If trouble arises, we got each others' back.

And since that news about the wedding, I marveled what’s next. After their nuptial, she would move to another place with her husband. And I feel gloomy thinking about it. Am I a bad best friend because I sense sadness and jealousy?

The other day I invited her out. We watched Harry Potter and ate until we nearly puked. It’s my pre-wedding treat. We shared new secrets, laughed and had fun. I wonder if we would still have moments like that after their wedding.

I long for her already. I am happy for her, but you can’t blame me if I feel a bit heavyhearted, right?

I moved on, what happened to you? // BENCH Blackout

2009-07-20T00:39:00.011+08:00

Last night, I was on feet in a familiar place. I went there speculating if I’d witness that recognizable face once more. I was a bit anxious; I didn’t fathom what to anticipate. I just couldn’t figure out what to do in case I catch a glimpse of that face again. I spent hours in that area, and not a shadow of that individual. I flaked off the place just about 2:30 am, wondering how that person is. It has been more than a year, I conjectured what happened to that person. As I walked away from that place, I never knew the answers to my queries, but one thing is for sure, I know I already moved.
As I was typing this, I was watching Bench Blackout Fashion Show in Abs-cbn. And I noticed this guy: Nice timing, huh? I hate him. He reminds me of someone I know.
He is Enchong Dee. The female crowd screamed when he was walking on the runway. And I say ‘shit.’ Hehe.

And my eyes were fixed on the screen when these guys came out.

I crush them, a little.

Photos courtesy pep.ph, obviously?
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It's nice to be back

2009-07-18T14:58:00.007+08:00

Hello peepos! The bitch is back. Hehe. Hiatus mode is over. I’ve been busy with various essential things in my life so I had to leave my blog for a while.

Noticed my new skin? I’m already fed up with my previous skin so I decided to change it before I end my hiatus mode. I was suppose to use this skin: click photo to see actual skin.

because I truly adore it, but after days of trying to edit it (that’s what delayed me), I didn’t use it because the navigations don’t work properly. Boo! So I tried to look for another one and poof! I found this simple but awesome skin. and I looove it. Do you?

I also changed my url. It was 2004 when I started this blog, and I was like 14 back then. So I decided to change my url because I think it’s too immature. Haha. I in fact can’t think of a good one so I just settled on this one:

http://delusions-of-a-narcissistic.blogspot.com/

Why? Self-explanatory. Hehe. And Psychiatric Nursing is truly one of my favorites. I also acquired a domain name which makes my url

http://delusions-of-a-narcissistic.co.cc/

but if that’s what you type, my favicon wouldn’t show up. So I still prefer

http://delusions-of-a-narcissistic.blogspot.com/

But it’s up to you if you want to use bs.com or co.cc, whichever way, it’s just almost the same.

So relink me okayy? And don’t I deserve a hug? Hehe. Whatever.

click on WISECRACKS to comment. Comments are LOVED. Do I still have to say that? HEHE.

taste EXOTIC.

2009-07-06T14:33:00.009+08:00

Last Monday, my friends and I went to UP TechnoHub to celebrate Ceejay’s birthday. We chose a certain restaurant although it appears on the outside that a funeral is going on. Haha. And when we entered, everyone is wearing black, even the customers. Weird. We are actually not satisfied with their service; we are in fact pissed with the strident tones of voice of the waitresses. Hehe.

Enough of the restaurant staff because the branch has just opened and I want to give them a chance. Whatever. Anyway, I actually want to talk about this certain food that we found on the menu.
It’s the OX Brain. I asked the waitress if it is fresh, and she just smiled.

It appears like a yellow sisig to me. ehe. And the taste—ugh! I can’t describe it because I don’t in fact understand the taste. Ceejay said that it tastes like butter. But it tastes bitter and mapakla, it's distasteful. It’s difficult to explain the savor, basta, one thing is for sure, I will not try it again.

Anyway, the Kabab tastes good naman.

I want to try more exotic foods (the mild ones only huh), although it’s frightening. Any restaurant suggestions within Metro Manila?

Anyway, I found this on the net:

Woot. I don’t think I’m brave enough to try that. yuck. It is found in Wangfujing Snack Street in China. Read HERE.

P.S. CLICK 'WISECRACKS' below to comment. :) Comments are LOVED. :)

Chad Michael Murray and Hilarie Burton are leaving ONE TREE HILL

2009-06-30T23:59:00.007+08:00

Photo courtesy of PerezHilton.com

I feel dreadful right now knowing that Lucas and Peyton will be gone for good. They will not be returning for the show’s seventh season. It may sound overstated but I in truth feel terrible as if someone died. I have faith that the One Tree Hill crew is great that they will manage to continue to produce a good show without the two but I know that their disappearance will be an enormous loss. I am not a LeyTon fan because I am actually a BrooCas/BruCas fan but I soooper doooper love that show. I’ve watched it since the first episode and I can say that I grew with it. I’ve learned a lot from it and I essentially applied those lessons in my life--about friendship, family and love. And I absolutely love all the characters though my favorites are Brooke and Lucas.
I am just wondering how the show will be without them. I think there will be a vast gap due to their nonappearance. Who will be Brooke’s best friend? Haley’s best friend? Nathan’s brother? The show is originally about the two of them right? Uncle Luke? Mia and Haley’s partner in business? Gawd, can’t imagine.
And they are having new characters to fill up Murray and Burton’s absence. But how are they going to fill up the absence of these two when they are major characters in the show? Gosh, I want to rally or whatsoever but I know that wouldn’t change a thing. And I know I’m not alone in this because thousands if not millions of One Tree Hill fans are feeling disappointed with this.
Read here, here, here, here, or here.
Or watch here or here.

Anyway, moving on to Gossip Girl, I hate it that it’s difficult to find a good site to watch Gossip Girl online. And so torrents download are my last resort.

Rest In Peace, King of Pop.

2009-06-26T19:00:00.010+08:00

I woke up at about 5 pm today. I was shaken by the news broadcast of Michael Jackson’s death. He died at a young age of 50 due to cardiac arrest. I felt a modest wretchedness because although I am not a big fan, I know he was able to influence millions of lives.

“This will be my final show performances in London.”, he said in a conference about his upcoming last concert tour. But he died 18 days before the said tour.

Despite the countless controversies he went through, he is still considered a legend, a genius, and I know millions if not billions of people are in grief right now. He will be remembered because of his vast contribution in the music of the world.

Too bad I was not able to watch live the guy who was considered the Greatest Performer of All Time and the Best Selling Solo Artist (above Elvis). (though I am not a pop fun)

Rest In Peace, King of Pop.

xs: Funny, my mom said, "tara punta tayo California, punta tayo kay MJ."

Rejections, Acceptance = REAL LIFE

2009-06-19T23:36:00.004+08:00

Tuesday – 06/16/09
3 rejections

Wednesday – 06/17/09
Acceptance.

Thursday – 06/18/09
Another rejection.

Friday – 06/19/09

When I woke up this morning, I still felt terrible. And when I opened my plurk account, this is the first plurk that I read from my plurk friend warden:

“Keep trying, Even if you failed today it does not mean you will fail tomorrow or the day after that.”

My mom asked me this morning if I will quit already. And I remembered what I always told myself and everyone, “Quitters are for losers, and I’m not one.”

Some other things I learned these past few days:

Life is indeed difficult, real life is different from what we experience inside the walls of our universities. You must have enough guts to face it.

And another thing is, sometimes, to get what you want, you really have to tell a lie.

Leighton Meester Sings

2009-06-19T20:53:00.006+08:00

Leighton Meester - Birthday (ft. Awesome New Republic)

Didn't know she is recording an album. I've read some articles and it is said that she has been recording an 'electropop' album. I adore Leighton, she's a good actress, she has a nice voice and i learned that she wrote some of the songs in that album. :)

This is 'Good Girls Go Bad' by COBRA STARSHIP feat. Leighton Meester. You can judge her voice better in this song.
I think Leighton's debut album will be a treat.

June 15, o9

2009-06-15T18:50:00.002+08:00

Today...

I’m officially a BUM for days.
All I do is sleep, wake up, gobble everything in our refrigerator,
surf the net, movie/tv series (GG) marathon,
go out, go to church, go home, eat again, watch tv, sleep.

I can actually get use to this life, or not?
So for how long will I be a B-U-M? 1 more week? A month? 2 months?
Or should I go find a job? What job? Where? How?
Errr.

This morning, I dreamed of my ultimate lecturer crush.
OMG, this is obsession already.

I know this girl who is really annoying me.
I wonder what her problem is. What’s wrong with you?

You know that I (we) hate you but you still keep on texting and whatever.
Even bothered to add me up on your new account?
Duh, I don’t even consider you as my friend.
I’m glad school is over and I’m free not to see your pretending face.
Anyhoe, won’t make you big a deal,
I’m glad I don’t have to deal with you everyday anymore.

Someone else is infuriating me but I won’t elaborate. =)

I started to like Facebook, just today. But I still don’t love it.
I now have 73 friends there. *applause*. And I have like a hundred more requests.
It’s frustrating.

Yesterday, I invited my friend Julie to watch a movie in gateway.
But unluckily, we didn’t have a mutual decision of what movie to watch.
So she ended up in cinema 2 watching Drag me to Hell
while I was in cinema 8 watching Angels and Demons.
Funny.

The Truth

2009-06-13T21:44:00.005+08:00

So, I just told my mom that I lost my phone.
She got heated for about 4 seconds I think.
The story I told her is slightly revised.
I wonder if how lengthy her fury is if I told her the whole un-edited version of the story.

Kuya Z, if you’re reading this, just don’t tell mom please. I’ll wait patiently for the phone that you will give me.

AKO MISMO

2009-06-12T23:15:00.003+08:00

They pushed me, I was about to fall but I was able to recover my sense of balance. Everything was in slow motion; I felt that something was taken from me. I was holding my digital camera at my left hand, my right hand on my bag. I saw his face, he stared at me. The whole thing was still in dawdling motion, he was moving away from me with two more guys. He abruptly disappeared in the crowd of people, and then everything around me returned to normal pace. I gazed blankly at the multitude of people; something significant was taken from me. But I was not able to react quickly as if I have a GCS of 7.

Then suddenly, I regained my consciousness, I shouted, “magnanakaw!”

HAHA. Akala mo love story? LMAO.

That’s how my motorola phone was taken from me earlier while I was in AKO MISMO Dog Tag Day in Bonifacio High Street.(in slow motion =D). That’s the reason why I went home early and didn’t wait for the other bands to play. I feel bad not because I lost my phone (though I really love that phone) but because I do not know how to tell my mom that I lost a phone again (this is like the 5^th or 6^th time). Oh yes, until now, I haven’t told my mom yet and I’m not planning to because I don’t know how. Argh. So not until a relative of mine reads this, they wouldn’t know.

It’s just weird kasi I’ve been to Pulp, Muziklaban, Myxmo (concerts wherein there are more people and it’s really mas magulo) and this happened now kung kelan I attended a concert for a cause. Weird much huh.

Everything of this happened just because I lied to my mom earlier. I didn’t tell her that I was going to a concert, the reason why I don’t know how to tell her. (First time huh? =D)

Pero nagsisisi na talaga ko, swear, God knows I regret it.

Pero natatawa talaga ko na naiinis. =D

AKO MISMO, ANG NADUKUTAN NG PHONE KANINA SA AKO MISMO DOG TAG DAY.

I’ve been through hell just to get to that event. And then this? Kaya pala, parang ayaw ako paalisin kanina. And hey, I didn’t attend that event just because of the dog tag and the bands, but because I really wanted to make a stand for change. And that change starts within our selves. But looks like some people didn’t know the purpose of that event.

Happy Independence Day people!

How did I spend my summer?

2009-06-10T14:40:00.002+08:00

I spent all the days of my summer inside the walls of SRG. I went to review everyday, sometimes half a day and a few times, just sleeping. But I never forgot to hang out with my friends sometimes. Social life ee.

Anyway, that’s the reason why I stayed out of my cyber life for two months, the board exam. I just didn’t want any distractions. Like you, yes you. LMAO.

During those two months (or more) several things happened. Several friends celebrated their birthdays, faced some dilemmas, had new crushes (as in crushes), met new people, learned a lot of things, was able to hurt some people thus hurting my self too, but was really more happy that before.

Labo ee no?

And the feeling of the upcoming board exam gave me an unexplainable thrill. I experienced mild anxiety but as it came closer, the anxiety faded. Not because I am confident but because I have faith.

I really don’t have anything to point out in this entry; it’s just that, time flies so fast that I just woke up one day that the board exam is already over.

And yes, I am so back, hello internet. HAHA.

God bless examinees. 3-5-100 FEU. :)

Hiatus mode is over.

2009-06-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

IM BACK. :D

2009-03-31T20:32:00.001+08:00

After more than 2 years, officially the battle is now over.

And I’m ecstatic because I WON.

My only weapon is my faith. My strength is my parents, my Best friend and AMICIE, the few people who supported me through out this battle.

Now, I can finally laugh harder.

FEU-CBI::PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE

2009-03-22T19:17:00.002+08:00

...But memories will stay.

Graduation Adieu blog series PART 1.

Yesterday or kanina, after our FEU CBI Tribute to Graduates and Year End Get Together, saka lang nag sink in sakin ang graduation. The entire event was remarkable, I had so much fun.

The event was planned by other CBI MTs who are not yet graduating. And I feel exhilarated to see their effort for this tribute. We, the graduates, really value it guys. Thank you big time!

After the camwhoring, games, kainan, kwentuhan and so on, I felt dreadfully poignant. Because I realized that this may be the last time that I would see these people. I’ve been with these people for about two semesters lang, but they really mean so much to me.

Even for the short span of time, I found friends here. Although I wasn’t able to get to know everyone of them, each one of them is important to me because I’ve been an “ate” and a friend to them. It’s sad because I realized that I would not be able to see them more often. It’s sad because my term as a FEU CBI Infocom is now over.

I want to thank everyone in FEU CBI because my last year is great because of you guys. Sorry for my shortcomings. And thank you guys BIG TIME because YOU SAVED ME. You know what I mean.

People always leave, but memories will stay.

We may be leaving FEU, but we will not leave you. We will always be your ATEs and KUYAs.

Keep in touch guys.

I did not lose the pain, I just got used to it

2009-03-20T23:58:00.001+08:00

While I was on my way home, I passed by a murky street, only one street light is on. Whilst I was in close proximity to that light, it suddenly turned off. Total darkness. I was looking straight ahead, but I saw ~~nothing.~~ I heard ~~nothing;~~ I couldn’t hear even the music from my ipod. I wanted to shout, but not a ~~sound~~ comes out. I felt so alone.

I have lots of friends. Close friends. Best friends. Real friends. But there would really be a point in your life when you would be on your own, and all you have is yourself. I’m strong; my friends know that, because the years of pain notwithstanding, I manage to wear a smile day by day and continue living. But it is in actuality true that when ~~no one~~ is around you, that is the point in time that your emotions would emerge.

I don’t desire to talk about it anymore, because every time I verbalize the words, I feel the pain. And also, I don’t want my friends to be involved in my misery any longer. As much as I need them, sometimes I’d rather be unaided in this battle. I’ve been suffering for years, and from time to time I think that I’m already used to the pain. But whenever I think of it, every time I try to talk about it, the neglected lesion is ~~scratched~~ again. The numbness turns into a burning sensation again.

After minutes of walking in the darkness, I saw a little glow. Slowly, it became vivid; it became evident that it was coming from the street light meters away. Yes, I was never alone, He’s there. And I know that there is still hope.

Non-judgmental Nurse

2009-03-18T23:15:00.004+08:00

The past few weeks have been hell for our batch; major exam, revalida, concept exams, defense, submission of requirements, and so on. Graduation is fast approaching and the pressure is all over the atmosphere. But due to some circumstances, some of us are not qualified to graduate this April 7 (we are still hoping).

It must be an extremely difficult time for them, imagine, you are a month away from graduation then suddenly they will tell you that you can not graduate? It’s like your entire dream would come crashing down in front of you after four long years of hard work. It must be really disappointing and disheartening, if I am in that situation, I do not know what to do.

Detrimental events in our lives like this would really have an immense impact in our emotional, physiological and psychological state, the reason why some people are able to commit some slip-ups.

I believe that one vital characteristic of a competent nurse is being non-judgmental; to patients who underwent a detrimental event in their lives like rape victims, abused patients, to psychiatric patients and to who ever patient is in front of you.

It pissed me off to see some people exhibit unsuitable attitudes in times and situations like these. They judged the person without trying to understand the situation. And they dishonored the person’s right to privacy and confidentiality. No empathy and non-therapeutic.

If as early as months before the Board exam, these people act like this, how much more if they are already Registered Nurses? Shame on you people.

Registered Voter

2009-03-16T23:11:00.003+08:00

I am now an official registered voter, and I’m proud to be one.

Iparinig ang tinig ng mga kabataan. Makialam. Makilahok.

Exercise your right to vote. Vote wisely.

My mom shouted to the top of her lungs to wake me up because I was too lazy to get out of bed this morning. But I’m glad I did because I was able to register for not more than 30 minutes, unlike last election wherein it took me the whole day standing in a very long line without getting registered!

Well, there is really an advantage when you’re early. The voters’ registration for the 2010 elections is until October his year.

MULTIPLE CHOICE

2009-03-15T17:11:00.009+08:00

Multiple choice ang binigay ng Diyos sa
atin.
Mamimili ka na lang: buhay
o kamatayan, pagpapala o sumpa. Binigay
pa
nya ang
key to
correction. Kung magkamali ka pa ng pagpili, labis na
ka-mangmangan na
yan.

That statement lingered on my mind since it was stated by our church
Pastor this afternoon. I don’t need to elaborate, it’s self-explanatory. I
just
want to share it with you guys.

Fluky Friday the 13th

2009-03-13T23:25:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I was able to commit an inadvertent mistake, a false move that troubled me until this afternoon.

Good thing, everything went better when I arrived at school. I guess it’s not Friday the 13th misfortune at all.

I was finally able to drop my Victoball at the Victometer and got my INSTITUTE OF NURSING CERTIFIED ASSET pin!

And I have faith that I passed the LMR concept exam.

And I was happy for my friends who passed the Remedial exam. But also felt dreadful for my friends and classmates who are going to re-take the remedial exam. But just be positive, I have faith in you guys.

I already felt better, but that thing still bothers me a little. So help me God.

ERASERHEADS LIVE! THE FINAL SET.

2009-03-09T23:45:00.006+08:00

Concerts are LOVE, that is why I adore attending them. From bar gigs, battle of the bands, artist concerts, Fete de la musique, Myxmo, RH muziklaban, to Pulp Summer slam.

And when I learned that the Eraserheads will have a part 2 of their reunion concert, I was truly raring to go and watch.

I purchased a ticket almost a week before the event. I was eager to go even if I’m alone. Good thing my friend Khax went with me.

On the morning of March 7, the exhilaration developed even further. So we went to the venue early. About 2 hours before the start, many supporters are already present at the concert venue.

The thrill and fervor of the crowd is awe-inspiring. Whenever the MTV ad for the concert would come into view, people would shout and root for Eraserheads. It was apparent that they in actuality can’t wait for the show to begin.

When the show started, everyone stood up, looked for their own nice spot. Khax and I stood up close to a big screen and a big speaker which I think damaged our eardrums. Hehe. But we chose to suffer from the loud sound than to go someplace where we cannot have a good shot of the screen.

For the first few songs, I tried to count the songs they played but as the concert goes on, I lost track of the numbers because I was dumbfounded by their music.

The concert started with breathtaking pyrotechnics. I took a video of it but also deleted it because I needed more space to record some songs. ‘Magasin’ was the first song followed by their other hits.

At some point in the middle part of the show, Ely requested for the crowd to scream for Francis’ name, each one of us shouted loud then they played ‘Super Proxy’ with such passion, followed by a part of “kaleidoscope world’, an accolade to the late Master Rapper who was supposed to be a surprise guest in the said concert.

‘Huling El Bimbo’ was the last song along with astounding fireworks display. It was past 12:30 I think (not sure) when they ended Huling El Bimbo, expressed thanks and said good bye and went off the stage, but not a soul was moving, as if waiting for them to play more songs. Khax and I were taking photos at the Big Coca-cola at the back of the venue when few minutes after, (I think that was Raymond) asked the crowd if we still want more, then he called Ely, Buddy and Marcus and they talked at the stage (I don’t know if it’s scripted or what. Hehe). Khax and I hurried back to our previous spot along with everyone moving closer to the stage and screens. Then they played more songs which according to Ely is not included in their set. That last part made the crowd more enthusiastic and full of life.

The multitude sang with every song they sang, applauded and screamed at every song they played. I’m a huge fan of the band, maybe that’s why I had this exceptional feeling during the concert. I had mixed emotions. I was ecstatic that I almost cried. Delighted because I was at that concert and poignant because maybe, that is really their ‘final set’. It was actually spectacular to see them on stage, together as one band.

Now, two days after the concert, I’m still having ‘last song heard syndrome’ and let’s just say I still haven’t ‘moved on’ from the Eraserheads fervor. I’m just really delighted that out of the millions of the Eraserheads’ fans, I was one of the 100,000 who witnessed.

Click here for the photos.

Click here for my personal videos from that night.

EHEADS Concert Tidbits

2009-03-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

Before I get into the real Eraserheads concert experience, I just want to share some tidbits about the concert.

The concert was opened by MTV VJs including Anne Curtis. She is wearing a plain sando shirt and black shorts, so simple but she looked really hot especially with that nice legs.

But the most important part of her get up is her expensive headband same with what Blair Waldorf used in one of Gossip Girl’s episode. Sorry but I can’t find the exact photo wherein Blair is wearing it but it was showed in one of SNN’s episodes.

It is a creation of Jennifer Behr, said to be worth Php 35,000. OMG.

I also spotted Jericho Rosales. OMG, he is so hot. I was astounded while he was in front of me that’s why he is already few steps away when I realized to take his photo. He was with Karylle.

Other celebrities present in the said event were Wendell Ramos, Tim Yap, Yasmien Kurdi, Aiza Seguerra, Yael Yuson, RJ of PDA and many others.

Your music will remain, Mr. Francis Magalona.

2009-03-06T23:38:00.001+08:00

While I was on my way home, I was ecstatic because of the good news that I received about the 3rd major exam. When I arrived home, SNN just started. It was a tribute to Francis ‘Kiko’ Magalona.

It was lunch break when a text message spread out saying that Francis M. passed away. I didn’t believe it because just months ago, I received the same text message so I thought it was just another bad joke.

So the news is true?

Francis Magalona, the Master Rapper really did pass away. I really felt terrible, I almost cried.

Kiko was considered a Jack of all trades; a singer, composer, actor, host, producer and so on. He composed anthems about youth, nation, freedom and many other hits that conveyed deep meaning. He started nationalistic rap. He was a Visionary, and a Legend awardee.

I’m really not that into rap/hip-hop music because I love rock music more. But I really felt dreadful about his death, because he really makes good rap music. He was in fact, the only locale rap musician I adore.

I even felt worse when I learned that he was supposed to be a surprise guest of Eraserheads’ concert tomorrow. If only he is still alive, I would be able to watch him perform tomorrow.

Your music will remain, Mr. Francis M.

francismagalona.multiply.com

happybattle.multiply.com

*I changed my Multiply and Blogger’s profile music to Francis M’s Kaleidoscope world, a tribute to the Master Rapper.

Back to camwhoring beybe!

2009-03-06T12:30:00.000+08:00

My digital camera is back! Yey! Back to non-stop camwhoring again.

Thank you SONY Service Center for the expensive repair of my cam. Hehe. But it’s okay, it’s worth every cent.

NEW LAY OUT

2009-03-06T02:11:00.003+08:00

I have a new Blogger Lay-out.

Hate it? Like it?

Tell me what you think about it.

Revalida: The Sequel

2009-03-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

After that very bad and infuriating morning, I asked mom to go malling muna.
Whenever I am stressed or depressed, I usually eat sweet stuffs or mollycoddle myself in any way. And because I have a hitch in my giddy-up after the Revalida nga, I wanted to coddle myself muna. Good thing, I was with mom, and she knows how to handle me in my bad temper. Don’t mention na malling with your mom is always better because you have more budget to indulge yourself.

First stop: Food.

Next Stop: Ticket!

Then I asked mom na pagawa na namin yung Digicam ko, (the reason why pics here are not my actual pics), she agreed.

Then I also bought some stuffs, clothes in particular. We also planned to watch a movie, kaso she's tired na.

Later that day, I met up with my gf KZI and chum PINKY. I asked them to stay at Krsipy Kreme, Gateway muna. Another way to enliven myself again.

A problem shared is a problem halved.

At the end of the day, I’m a snug as a bug in a rug. I feel like a million. Par for the course.

Last Revalida. And I’m the very last one.

2009-03-02T22:20:00.003+08:00

WARNING: Medyo mahabang blog to. Walang sense. Wala kang mapapala pag binasa mo.

Surname.

Since my elementary days, I’m used to being the ‘last one’. Not the last one sa standings, but last one sa class list, my surname starts with the letter Z kasi. Huli sa pila, huli sa graded recitation, at huli sa graduation. Bihira lang may Professor na nag-uumpisa sa dulo. It has its some disadvantages sometimes, but most of the time, it’s an advantage.

Assembly Time.

As defined in an internet site, assembly time: The elapsed time taken for an assembling or coming together of a number of persons, usually for a particular purpose.

On the text message I received, this was stated:
Revalida: March 1
7 to 8 am assembly
9 to 10 testing

Malinaw diba? So dumating ako around 8, or a little past 8am. When I arrived, I saw my classmates, tapos na daw sila mag-revalida. I was like, “wtf?”

So I entered school and talked to the clinical instructors, buti na lang mabait sila.
The first CI said, “Go there, look for Ma’am ---“. Then pinuntahan ko dalawang CI sa may Lover’s Lane. Mababait din sila, then the male CI said, “upo ka muna dun, mag muni-muni ka muna.”

I followed his instructions, nag-muni-muni ako sa benches ng Law Building. Nagtanong ako sa CI sa may LB, masungit sya. Kay nag walk-out ako at umupo uli.

Around 8:30 am

“Blue Batch” na ang nakapila, second batch. Supposed to be first batch ako, sa “Green Batch”, mga maka-kalikasan.

Around 9:00 am

I decided na magpunta sa Science Building, para maglakad lakad. Ghost hunting sana, walang katao tao, medyo madilim kasi patay ang ilaw. Wala naman ako nakita, totoo talagang tsismis lang na may multo sa SB.

Around 10 am ata

Padating na sila, ang mga ‘people power people’, “Yellow Batch”. Ako na lang naka-green sa loob ng FEU. Nakaka-frustrate, at nakakainis. Naiiyak na ko sa sobrang inis. Marami ako nakikitang kakilala, pero pinili kong huwag na lang sila pansinin dahil sigurado, magtatanong lang sila kung bakit di pa ko tapos.

Nakita ko mga former groupmates ko, lumapit ako sandali sakanila, pero umalis din ako. Gusto ko sana makihalubilo sakanila, kaso nahihiya ako. At pinili ko na lang mag-isa. May mga pagkakataon, na mas mabuting mapag-isa.

Mahirap ang pakiramdam ng naghihintay, na may halong bwisit at inis. Nakakalungkot pala maghintay mag-isa, para kong sasabog.

Mahirap pala ang walang kaibigan, naisip ko tuloy, pano yung ibang mga ‘loner’ sa school, ang hirap pala ng pakiramdam nila. Pano kaya nila natitiis yun?

Naalala ko pa na naghihintay si mama sa labas ng school, lalo akong naiiyak, pati si mama nadamay pa. Halo halo na emosyon ko, ang hirap ng ganung pakiramdam.

Sinubukan kong ibaling ang pansin ko sa lahat ng bagay na nakikita ko. Tinignan ko yung botanical garden, kakabisaduhin ko sana yung mga scientific names ng mga halaman, kaso tinanggal na pala nila yung mga names. Pinansin ko yung mga naglilinis na JAMMAS, yung mga 2nd year, nanglait ng mga sapatos, bag at make-up na makita ko.

Pero kahit anong baling pala ang gawin mo, babalik at babalik ka din sa tunay na nilalaman ng puso mo.

Gusto ko tumayo at magtanong sa CI kung pwede na niya ako isingit, kaso parang may magnet na yung upuan, ayoko na tumayo, ayoko na tumuloy. Natakot din kasi ako na pagsungitan na naman nya, at natatakot din akong mapahiya sa harap ng ibang mga estyudanteng nakapila.

After a few minutes, nagkaron din ako ng lakas ng loob na tumayo sa kinauupuan ko. Minsan pala, kahit anong takot ang nararamdaman mo, kailangan mong maglakas ng loob, anuman ang kinatatakutan mo.

Tinanong ko yung masungit na CI kung after ng yellow batch ee pwede na ko mag-revalida. Napakaganda ng sagot nya: “Siguro”. PESTE.

Gusto ko mag-maldita, gusto ko sya sagutin, kaso di naman pwede. Sasabog na ko sa inis, naiiyak na ko pero pinigilan ko, nakakahiya sa mga tao.

Maya-maya nilapitan nya ko, sabi nya pumila daw ako sa dulo ng last section. Wow, buti naman yung ‘siguro’ nya ee nagging ‘oo’.

Pagpasok sa Law Building, may isa na namang kontrabidang CI. Paakyat na ko sa hagdan, pinigilan nya pa ako. Bumaba daw muna ako, at maghintay, “Parusa” daw sakin yun dahil late ako.

Around 11:15 am na nun, tinignan ko yung orasan sa IN office, halos parehas lang naman pala sa wristwatch ko. Tinitignan ako nung mga nakapila, nakakasar. Gusto ko na mag-tantrums, kaya ang ginawa ko, I faced the wall. 19 minutes, kaya ko to. Pero pagkatapos ng mga ilang minuto, tinawag ako ni kontrabida number 2, umakyat na daw ako sa 3rd floor. Bago umakyat, tinanong nya ko kung ano daw nangyari sakin, bakit daw ako late. Sinabi ko yung tungkol sa “assembly time”, sabi nya mali daw yun 7-7:30 daw ang assembly. Bullshit. Naiiyak ako sa inis, sabi nya kalamahin ko daw sarili ko, ni hindi ko sya tinignan.

Dinala ko ng isang mabait na CI sa isang room, kasama ang isang section. Wala ako kilala sakanila ni isa. Familiar lang si ‘Raymond Gutierrez’.

Almost 12:00 pm

Nakaupo pa rin ako sa loob ng room na yon. Napansin ako nung isang CI, bakit daw ‘green’ ako. Sabi nya: “sana huwag ka mapansin, baka kasi hindi ka tanggapin”.
*PESTE. So after ko maghintay ng halos 4 hours, hindi nyo ko tatangapin?* OA aa.

Past 12 pm ng papilahin na kami, hintay na naman. Nakakapagod pala talaga maghintay.

Medyo nag scan naman ako sa ilang topics ng Revalida, I was hoping na alam ko ang matapat sakin, at sana, hindi masayang ang paghihintay ko.
Maaga pa lang inisip ko na na huwag na tumuloy, tutal 20% lang naman ng RLE grade ang Revalida, hindi masyadong kawalan. Pero tumuloy ako, naisip ko kasi, sayang.

Pagpasok ko sa room, POOF! Kung alin yung wala sa video, yun pa natapat sakin. Sinubukan ko, at pumasa naman ako. Pero sobrang disappointed ako. Di pa ko nakakalabas ng room, naiyak na ko. Wala pang signal na lumabas na sa room, tumakbo na ko palabas.

Sa Nursing Building ako dumaan, pero bago makalabas ng NB, tumigil muna ko sa pagtakbo. Umiyak. Nilabas ko sama ng loob ko, galit at disappointment. Kung alam ko lang na mababa lang ang makukuha ko, di na lang sana ko naghintay.

Naisip ko tuloy, minsan pala talaga, hindi tama na maghintay ka. Lalo na kung hindi ka naman sigurado sa hinihintay mo. Baka kasi sa huli, masayang lang paghihintay mo, at baka masaktan ka lang.

Paglabas ko ng NB, nakatingin sila sakin, halata atang umiyak ako. Nakakaiya, kaya tumakbo ako. Gusto kong umiyak kay mama at ilabas pa ang nararamdaman ko. Pero naisip ko, huwag na lang.

Tinanong nya ko, kung ano ang nangyari sakin. Sabi ko “wala”. Bakit daw mukha akong umiyak, sabi ko “wala”. Nakita kong biglang nag-alala ang mga mata nya, mas nasaktan ako dun.

Wala naman talagang point ang blog na ito. Gusto ko lang ilabas ang sama ng loob, ka-badtripan at inis ko. Kaya kanina sa duty, ayaw kong pag-usapan ang Revalida. Gusto ko lang ilabas lahat sa blog na to, at ibaon na sa limot ang pesteng Revalida na yun.

Pasensya na kung binasa mo ang walang sense na blog na to. I warned you.

*thank you sa nagbasa. mwa.*

Re: Shoot For the Moon

2009-02-12T10:42:00.000+08:00

The following are e-mail responses for my "Shoot for the Moon" blog.

♥♥♥

You are right! When you dream you dream big but before you dream think of God who will help you in your dream.

Always think of HIM who stand beside you and when you don't see Him there that is the time He is coddling you.

Bastat mabuhay ka what is expected of you as a true Christian. Huwag itali sa katawan ang pagkakamali, at mga ugaling sanlibutan. Sometimes He makes us fail to realize our mistakes pero if you know yourself that you are in the right path, hinding hindi ka Niya pababayaan.

Samaktwid, distinguish yourself as "anak ng Dios" at di "anak ng Sanlibutan" Ipagpanata mo ang lahat ng iyong ambisyon sa buhay. Set a time sa pagpapanata - ikaw, ang Ate mo at ang Mama mo? Ginagawa nyo ba ito? Ang tuwing sasapit ang ganoong oras ay nananalangin kayo sa Ama para tulungan sa inyong buhay? If you don't, then this is the time to reform - gawin ninyo araw-araw ang pagpapapata say 9:00 p.m. Kahit nasa jeep ka o bus ka o nasa train ka, simply close your eyes and uttered short prayers for HIM gayundin ang dapat gawin ng ng iyong ate at Mama and I will guarantee to you - ang mga taong matuwid di Niya pababayaan.

In this time of harship and troubled, iisa lang naman ang makakatulong sa atin - ang AMA.

With GOD with you always, I don't see why you will not realize your dreams! And you are not shooting for the moon, you are shooting for HEAVEN!

TITO FRED

♥♥♥

The main thing is to think that you are doing it it not for anybody else, but for yourself... Remember that it is your future, and not anypne else, that is at stake.

On the other hand, pressure can sometimes be good. It can give you extra motivation and eventually push you to work harder.

Also remember that if you fail the exam, that it is not the end of everything. Sometimes getting the feel for the way the test is carried out gives others the confidence the next time around. But I do have the full confidence in you, my dear sister.

"Shoot for the moon, so when you fall, you would still land on the stars.'

That's true sister, but in doing so, you must always remember to keep your feet on the ground...

Remeber too that whatever happens, I love you and will always be here for you.

GOD Bless! Pray always!

KUYA Z

♥♥♥

In every endeavor,there could only be two results- success and failure.If you fail on the first time,there is a second ,third,fourth and so on chances.Hard work and studying religiously are the best weapons to attain success and with constant prayers to God, you will reach the moon..

As for your forthcoming graduation and board axam, you should have confidence on your self. You will not reach the fourth year if you're not talented. Of course,you should always call for the guidance of our Dear Lord. "Nasa Diyos ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa" ayon nga sa lumang kasabihan. Don't feel scared . If the others( thousands of them) have passed the board exam in the past, why can't you? Always have a strong heart and sheer determination.This will give you the necessary fighting spirit in your every undertaking. "

When I was in grade five elementary,my teacher informed me that I will represent Cubao Elem.School in the National Science Test but there was only a week left before the exam schedule.I didn't feel scared and I studied hard.I was full of confidence. The outcome? I passed the exam and I was on the top five.

Remember always - you're the daughter of Felix- The constant honor student from elementary to high school and you have inherited his wisdom.I indeed tried to shoot for the moon but I failed, I did not fall on the stars either but I found myself floating with the happy clouds together with you,with your sister and brothers and your loving mother.

DAD

Shoot for the Moon.

2009-02-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

Earlier, while having dinner and watching the television, I said “Hindi man lang nya natupad pangarap ng tatay nya”. Then my mom said, “ako kaya, matupad?”, I would usually answer her with “don’t worry mom, ako tutupad sa pangarap mo”. Pero kanina, I just remained silent.

If I would stare at my dream checklist, 80% of it is for my parents. I constantly had a lucid view of what I would like to attain, for myself and for my family. Hindi kami isang kahig isang tuka, we can eat 4 times a day, study in private schools, buy our desires and needs. Pero syempre, it’s not wrong naman to dream big right? Shoot for the moon, so when you fall, you would still land on the stars.

But lately, I’ve been vague about a lot of things, indecisive or scared. Few months from now, I will be graduating BSN. Then after that, what? Will I pass the board exams? If I fail, it would break my heart to let down my parents. If I pass, where will I go? I want to achieve great things and do a lot of things. But the question is, how?

I don’t desire for a fairy tale life; I just want a better life for my loved ones.

A Head Nurse and a Pediatric Nurse

2009-02-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

Our Head Nursing duty in National Children’s Hospital taught us two big important aspects of being a Nurse: Head Nursing and Pediatric Nursing.

I always had this hard time dealing with children. So when I learned that we will have our Head Nursing duty in National Children’s Hospital, I felt fear and frustration. The reason is because I thought that I may not be able to handle my dislike to children, especially stubborn ones. The thought of being a pediatric nurse gave me fright because children, especially infants are dreadfully fragile. I believe they are difficult to take care of from assessment to evaluation. They are young, and they are difficult to assess especially in attaining subjective cues. It is also difficult to assess their level of pain and how they really feel. In terms of interventions, it’s a bit scary because a single simple mistake can cost their young lives. And in taking care of pediatric patients, you’re not only dealing with the young children, but also their parents.

I also felt mild anxiety because I feared that I would not be able to be an effective Head Nurse. I was scared that I would not be able to lead and manage my group mates well. I was scared of the responsibilities of a Head Nurse and I feared that I may not be able to accomplish them well. And especially, I feared that this Head Nursing duty might ruin our friendship.

When we had our exposure, I was faced with big realities of nursing life. During our first exposure to patients, I admit, tears fell from my eyes during our duty on the Neuro-Surgery ward. I was overwhelmed with the great poignant vibe in the ward. It was sad to see these young people suffer at an early age. And their poverty is just making their situation worse. But this didn’t discourage me; instead, it pushed me to strive to be a better nurse to these young people. My loathe feeling towards children was suddenly transformed into fervor, a burning passion to be a good pediatric nurse.

In this exposure, I was also able to know my group mates more being their staff nurse and being their head nurse. I was able to see that in our group, there is teamwork, cooperation, collaboration and friendship.

I was also grateful that our clinical instructor, Ma’am Leticia Aguilar, was able to teach us these two essential aspects of nursing: Pediatric and Head nursing. She was able to effectively teach us the things that we need to know from different diseases affecting children to skills and knowledge that a head nurse should possess.

This entire exposure was indeed, a memorable and essential part of my nursing life. It taught me things that are important to be a competent nurse months from now. It made me stronger, and taught me to be able to control my emotions despite the great wretchedness that every patient’s condition may cause you. It made me wiser and be more careful in every thing that you do to your patient. It made me appreciate the youth of our society today. It made me appreciate my group mates more. It taught me important knowledge and skills that I need. It made me appreciate and value life like I never did before.

In the pledge of the American Nurses Association, this is clearly stated: “The nurse’s primary commitment is the health, welfare and safety of the client.” And months from now, I know I can execute this pledge to whoever client is I front of me, rich or poor, old or young.

Gossip Girl s2 ep14

2009-02-02T18:34:00.001+08:00

Just finished watching GG season 2 ep 14 "In the realm of the basses"

A shocking, controversial, moving, tear-jerking episode.

I just really love B.

"This time, when i looked into his eyes, I couldn't see him anymore." -B

"I'm not abandoning Chuck, I'm just saving myself." -B

One thing about being on top of the world, it gives you a long long way to fall.

"I'M CHUCK BASS! Who cares." -Chuck

"I do, don't you understand, I'll always be here. I don't want you going anywhere, I couldn't bear it." -B

It's not about what happened, it's about what to come.

The past is always with us, just waiting to mess with the present.

I'll try to finish ep15 now then yung 16 naman sa following days. :)

Nakakainis lang kasi I can't watch OTH episodes dun. argh.

Shoot!

2008-12-30T22:40:00.005+08:00

Kanina, while I was browsing, I bumped into someone's profile.
And I saw something that sent shivers down my spine.

I was like OMG.
Literally, nanginig tuhod ko.

I thought. I guess I was wrong.

It fuckin' sucks!

nice gift for New Year's Day. :)))

Welcome 2009!

2008-12-26T16:35:00.002+08:00

Few days na lang, New Year’s Eve na. It’s actually my favorite National Event. Kasi you get to have fun and celebrate with everyone. Nakikita mo pa yung mga neighbors mong one whole year mo ding hindi nakita. Hehe. And the loud noise, colorful and stunning fireworks everywhere makes it more exciting.
Plus the fact na mas madaming handa pag New Year. HAHA.

It’s not so obvious na I’m excited sa 2009.

Kasi I already bought a planner weeks ago. It’s the Cosmopolitan Date Book.

The first half of my 2009 would be all about the upcoming Board Exam. And the next half? Well, it depends on the result of the first half, I guess.

Let’s all welcome 2009 with a BANG!
And one more thing, I'll be turning TWENTeen this JUNE 2009. OMG!

TAKIPSILIM.

2008-12-24T20:10:00.002+08:00

There was suddenly a hurry and scurry all over the net about this “TAKIPSILIM” issue. Sa plurk, multiply, everywhere!

Well, if you don’t know about this yet, this links may help you:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_programs_broadcast_by_ABS-CBN

http://twilightsaga.multiply.com/journal/item/1168/OME_This_is_a_PRESS_RELEASE_for_TWILIGHT_Pinoy_Version.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/say-no-to-twilight-filipino-version

I just found those links sa plurk, and I wasn’t able to read them. I don’t care much about this issue kasi talaga kasi I’m not a super-twilight-fanatic naman. Natatawa na nga lang ako ee, rayver and shaina. HAHAHAHA.

Feel ko lang mag blog about this. LMAO. apektado din ako ee? ROFLMAO.

Zendagi Migzara

2008-12-24T19:45:00.000+08:00

Zendagi Migzara. Life goes on.

I was at page 236, I closed the book and stared at our TV set. I wiped my tears. I looked at the clock; it said 3:30pm. I didn’t desire to go on, because for me, that page contained the ending of the story. I gazed at the book cover, two boys, arms around the shoulders of each other. I wanted to stop reading, because there is no more hope for the ending that I wanted; Hassan is gone.

But I opened the book, and continued reading, 165 more pages to go. I closed the book once again and glimpsed at the clock, it read 5:30pm. I completed reading the book.

After several days, I finally finished reading The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. I borrowed the book from a friend, thanks Bjane!

It’s an astonishing book, really. Now I want to see the movie.

It changed the way I look at Afghanistan. Before, when I hear “Afghanistan” or “Afghans”, I would think of terrorists, war, and heartless people. I would even sometimes raise my eyebrow. Now, I was able to understand the situation better, the Roussi, the Taliban, etc.

And now, the way I feel about Afghanistan also changed. I feel sympathy to those Afghans who have been struggling over the years to triumph over the forces of violence. I feel sorry for the innocent ones.
They say that, there are a lot of children in Afghanistan, but little childhood.

We all make mistakes; it’s in our nature, because we are just humans. What matters is what we do after we apprehend our mistakes. It’s how we deal with the consequences.

A man who has no conscience, no goodness, does not suffer. -Rahim Khan

When we commit a huge slip-up, and feel guilty for it, that guilt will haunt us. It will make us suffer. And that suffer will only come to an end until we face it. Until we deal with our mistake.

In my case, I was able to commit a mistake, a mistake that haunts me up to now. I don’t know how to face it, I can’t. And the consequences? I’ll deal with them when I come face to face with it.

Basta, I can’t describe the feeling while reading the book. It portrayed family, friendships, courage, cowardice, shame, guilt, love, betrayal, and redemption. It is moving and heartbreaking. I love it.

How seem less seemed love and then came trouble.

For you, a thousand times over.

Pinoy Blogs | Pinoy Bloggers

2008-12-20T18:40:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rm6vwiLyfQ&fmt=18

it's a video that kuya itot54joni (a plurk friend) created.
it's a 2008 tribute to all Pinoy Bloggers.

I'm glad kasi my BLOG was flashed in that video. :) yey.

Though i think my BLOG is not as good as the others' because it's just a bunch of random stuffs about me, my life, the people around me and other stuffs that I observed.

I've been blogging since November 2004. This is my original and one and only blog in blogger. I don't blog in friendster, simply because I just don't want to. And there are more blog posts in my Multiply account, but some are in PRIVATE. LOL, choosy?

THANKS A LOT kuya JONI. :)

*click the photos to enlarge*

3-5-90

2008-12-19T13:30:00.000+08:00

FAR EASTERN UNIVERSITY
Institute of Nursing Batch 2009

I don't actually care much about the 3 and the 5.
What matters to me is the 90. Can we make it?

Can we move up to 100.
Are we capable of achieving it?

Who will belong to the 90?

To the 10?

I have strong faith that I will be one of the 90.
And it would be better if my closest friends, my friends, my group mates, my block mates, former class mates, acquaintances, and even those whom I do not know, will PASS.
In short, everyone in our batch will be triumphant and be able to chase our dreams.
Or if it’s not your dream, at least make our parents proud.
And all the money, effort and the four years of hardships, tears, sweat, pain and great moments will not be wasted.

How about you? Where do you belong? 90? 10? Or 100?

"In Life there are many UPs and DOWNs. But there's no where to go but UP!" -JON, GKNB Dec 19, 08 Studio Player

The Sticky Ends of Recombinant DNA: AMICIE

2008-12-18T23:59:00.001+08:00

"araw araw gumigising ako, pero di na ko makangiti gaya ng dati.

pakiramdam ko minsan, nag-iisa ako."

good thing, I have my friends. my bestest-closest friends.
BIG THANKS AMICIE kanina.

Who's your type of guy? PICK ONE.

2008-12-18T14:05:00.001+08:00

Who's your type of guy? PICK ONE.
I LOVE all these guys. And maybe you too. But you just have to pick one.
Base it not only by the looks, but also by their characters.

Nathan Royal Scott

Nate Archibald

Dan Humphrey

Chuck Bass

or Lucas Eugene Scott

Isn't it tough to choose? I'm also having a hard time here.
whew.

OTH vs GG

2008-12-13T23:17:00.016+08:00

I finished watching season 2 of Gossip Girl. But yung season 6 ng OTH ee hindi pa.

I soooo LOVE the QUEEN B, Blair Waldorf.

But of course, BDavis is still my favorite.

I love both shows. I just noticed some similarities between the two.

BDavis and PSawyer are best friends, and they fight a lot.

S and B are also best friends today, enemies tomorrow.

Both Brooke and Blair have manipulative-monster-moms.

And both of them are involved in the fashion world.

In both shows, they have love triangle, quadruple, quintuple and so on.

Their parents have histories.

Lucas in season 6 is already a successful writer.

Does he look like a writer dyan? Goosh, he’s so hot. Whew!

Anyway, in GG, Dan Humphrey is a frustrated writer.

But if I where to choose between the two, I would choose Dan over Lucas. Why? Even though Lucas is undoubtedly hotter than Dan, Lucas is also certainly more babaero than Dan. Well, at least, so far.

Those are just some of the resemblance I’ve noticed, so far.

But I don’t think na one copied it from the other. Kasi, as we or most of us now, Gossip Girl is based on a book created by Cecily von Ziegesar, its first volume was published around 2002. So she must be writing it months if not years before 2002.

On the other hand, One Tree Hill is created by Mark Schwahn that premiered on September 23, 2003 on The WB Television Network.

According to an interview I read, he was on the set of the movie “The Perfect Score” (that was about 2002 to 2003) when he consulted Brian Robins about the script he created (It was really supposed to be a film). So he must have written the script of supposed to be “Ravens” around 2003 or months before that.

PERO, ewan ko ha, these are all just out of my imaginary mind. I don’t know who “copied” or if there was really even a “copying” that happened.

Ikaw, may alam ka ba bout this? Share mo naman!

ANYWAY, basta I love both ONE TREE HILL and GOSSIP GIRL.

But just like what some people say, mas matimbang ang FIRST LOVE.

See?

You know you love me. XOXO, Gossip Girl.

There is only ONE tree Hill.

ANY VIOLENT REACTIONS? COMMENTS? Feel Free.

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CINCO.

2008-12-07T19:39:00.000+08:00

Dec 5, 08.

Time flies truly fast.

6 lengthy months, then 6 nippy months equals 1 year of jerky moments of bliss, melancholy, guilt, contentment, resentment, satisfaction, deceit, genuineness, battle and LOVE.

I just didn’t know that it would be this quick.

I admit there are some what ifs. But I’m sure I don’t regret a thing.

A&Fo5.

ROFLMAO.

2008-11-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

You guys are FUNNY.

Just clean up your own mess.

You think all of this is about you, don’t you?

Well, just a piece of advice: stop being ridiculous and paranoid.

Ang gusgusing Bata sa Recto.

2008-11-16T17:17:00.000+08:00

This morning, while I was on my way to school (I was late again, as always), there were these ‘Badjao (I think? tama ba spelling?) kids’ who were at the jeepney I was riding. They were doing the usual caroling-at-the-kalsada whenever malapit na daw mag-Christmas.

And so, ayun nga, they are the usually makukulit, magugulo and annoying kids who acts like the kalsada of Recto or any busy street is their playground.

But when they started singing, I was like, “wtf?!”. This kid actually has music! He was just holding two cans of powdered milk (I guess), tied together. Pinapalo lang nya yung cans freely while singing. The kid really caught my attention kasi he truly has a talent. Aside from the nice voice, he was just practically singing about anything that he sees. He is a singer and a composer pa. Bumilib lang talaga ko cause that was actually the first time that I saw a magulong-gusgusing bata na pakalat kalat sa kalye who actually exudes God-given talent.

DI BAGAY.

2008-11-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

Wag na kaya?

di naman bagay.

HAHAHAHAHA.

wag na ipilit.... bleh!

JUST BE YOURSELF. Part 2

2008-11-15T18:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, me and my friends who were involved on the said issue talked over. At san pa ba ang venue kundi sa Mcdo gateway. hak.

and good thing because we are ok now. Hope we'll be back together guys. Umayos na kayo pleeeeaaase lang. hak. Hirap nyo pagbati-batiin infairness.

Mwa!

JUST BE YOURSELF.

2008-11-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

Lately, there have been some issues going on. And as much as I want to stay out of it, I can’t because somehow, I am involved.

It just pisses me off that someone acts so innocent when in fact, that person is the real cause of the issue. How can that person act that way?

Why don’t you just be the real you and stop pretending?

I know I’m not that nice, I have my own ka-malditahan sometimes or madalas. But at least, I’m being my self. And I’m glad because there are these people who still love me despite the kasamaan ng ugali.

Why don’t you try it? It feels good when you know that your friends are real.

Stop pretending to have “cool friends” or to attract the opposite sex.

But still, I don’t want to accuse the person though I’m somehow pissed off with that person, because I still don’t know the other side of the story. We all know that there are always two sides of the story. But I don’t know if I can still get that person’s side of the story because things are just too messed up right now.

Actually, I want to stay out of the issue because a friend is involved and I want to protect that friend. So I really don’t know what to do yet. But I’m still taking things slowly, I don’t want to rush into conclusions yet. Gusto ko muna mag-isip isip.

THOU SHALL NOT...

2008-11-11T15:48:00.000+08:00

sabi sa text:

"THOU SHALL NOT FLIRT WITH THE ATTACHED."

sabi ko naman:

"THE ATTACHED SHOULD NOT FLIRT."

hahahahaha. sapul ba?
excuse sa tamaan. ROFLMAO.

PEACE.

RETIRED MALDITA

2008-11-11T15:23:00.000+08:00

Maldita is coming back...

SOON. :DDDDDD

Schizotypal. Conflicts. Issues. FRIENDS.

2008-10-26T19:31:00.000+08:00

Schizotypal is a personality disorder, according to Videbeck, is it an acute discomfort in relationships. While Antisocial is the disregard for rights of others, rules and laws. Borderline is the personality disorder wherein that person has unstable relationships.

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Lately, I’ve been having this different conflicts or issues with the people around me, particularly my friends.

First are this little issue with my T-Gang, and the unintended laglagan with Khang. Peace pre.

Another is the ka-malditahan ko again na lately lang ee pinadama ko sa mga Laguna buddies.

And recently is my little inisan-tampuhan issue with my girlfriend and my medyo old-little-issue with some of my amicie.

And lastly is this tampuhan issue with my BEZ and BEST.

I’m just scared that our roughly 10 years of friendship will end just because of this issue, I certainly hope not. I want to fix it, but I don’t know how to initiate. I guess I’m just being Choleric again; my smugness is getting in the way. But what can I do, it’s really not my fault. Well, maybe, I somehow have a liability on this. But it’s really not on me. Aw, Brat. Tsk. But I know things will be okay between us again, but not now.

Is it me? Are these my entire fault? Is this because I’m soooo choleric na hindi ko na ma-handle at times? Or because of my stupid callousness na di ko talaga minsan ma-control? Or is this because of my short-temper that’s difficult to handle? Or am I just being paranoid or schizotypal na ko? Or borderline? Or antisocial? Huwag naman sana at di naman siguro.

Nakaka-frustrate lang na ngayon pa to nangyayari kung kelan I’m going through a very tough time in my life. I need you guys more than you need me. Amicie and my ZEB Jo lang ang nakakaalam if what’s the real deal but even them don’t know precisely how difficult this is for me dahil for all these months, I’m trying my best to carry this alone. But it’s really a heavy load na ayaw kong maging pabigat din sa iba because I know they have their own problems too. But ngayon ko lang sasabihin to: hirap na hirap na hirap na ko. Kung alam nyo lang. Pagod at ayoko na ring maglabas ng nararamdaman sa Amicie dahil nakakahiya na sakanila, lalo kay Abby. And I know they have their own problems to mind. Aside from them, wala na ko ibang malapitan dahil ayoko na i-explain ang problema sa iba, it’s not that easy.

It’s just fucking difficult na wala ko masabihan, malapitan at maiyakan bukod sa computer na nasa harapan ko ngayon. I can’t blame my friends dahil it’s either ayoko sila lapitan o wala naman sila alam of what I’m going through. I’m fatally tired, perturbed and petrified.

That’s my blog post that I typed few hours ago. Until I stopped typing and remembered someone—my ZEB. She’s Josephine, my best friend for about 9 years now. She is always there for me. But since I became busy sa school because of duties and stuffs, we seldom see each other na, kahit 2 blocks away lang houses namin. And most of the times na nagkikita kami is because of me. It’s just a shame na the majority of the times na I visit her is when I needed her, like now.

We talked, cried and laughed for about 2 or 3 hours. We did some catching up and some serious talk, and some major laughing. Until nagtext si mama and sinabing “umiwi ka na. Dinner na.” ehe.

I went home smiling, because despite the conflicts, issues and problems, I’m already feeling better. Thanks to her. Thank God for people like her, like Amicie, like T-Gang, like my other friends, like you na despite of my iniquity still stay beside me.

And thank God for giving me this punishment/predicament because it made me stronger, it taught me a lot of things; it changed me and showed me that my friends are GENUINE.

And more updates: me, my other best friend Bez Jasper and Lycar (best) are medyo okay na, just now. Ehe.

My weary body, mind, and heart.

2008-10-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

SUICIDE? Yes, I admit, there were times that suicide comes into my mind.

BUT NO. I will not quit this battle. I believe in my weapon- my prayers.
As i've said, I trust and believe in it.

**this blog is still connected to the blog post entitled: S.O.S. Help!

MY BATTLE

2008-10-24T18:55:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes I just want to QUIT on a BATTLE when things start to hurt. I want to STOP AND LEAVE everything as it is before the pain gets worse. But when I remember how much I've prayed and how much I really wanted it before I have even stepped on the battlefield, HOPE comes into my HEART, and I begin to think that maybe.. just maybe.. it is worth going THIS FAR."

And now I've come this FAR. My PRAYERS are my only weapon and armor in this battle. But i trust it and I believe in it.

I'll be a songer. Just wait. :))

2008-10-22T12:56:00.001+08:00

WONDERWALL - Oasis

Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you shoulda somehow realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

Back beat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before but you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day but they'll never throw it back to you
By now you shoulda somehow realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

I've been having LSS on this song since it was played at Embassy Fly the last time we went there. It’s a nice song that you will really want to sing when you hear it. These are the kinds of songs that some people, especially girls, daydream that someone would croon them.

For years, (approximately 7 years), I’ve met several people that sang me different songs. That’s the reason why every time I hear those songs again today, I would remember those people. If you see me smile or giggle when a song plays, I’m probably thinking of someone.

Yes, it’s nakakakilig and flattering when someone makes you harana or chants you a song. But we all know that not all of those songs are actually meant, just like when the original singers of those songs sang it or the composers wrote it. I imply, come on, not all of them write or sing great songs not because that’s how they feel but because they need to do it for money. You see, they would benefit kasi if they would write or sing a great song. Just like when a person sings you a pleasant song, they know they would benefit from it because that act can melt your heart. Especially to girls, come one, ganun naman talaga diba, lalo na kung napaka-cheesy or mushy mong tao. Hehe.

The reality is words are words. Songs are songs. They don’t always mean it, that’s the fact. Just like when someone sang me a song saying that he would love that girl with the broken smile, yes he did love that girl with the broken smile- for several months. And when someone sang me a Rhythm and Blues song, saying that we would always be there for each other. And now, yes he’s still there for me but it’s not reciprocated. Another is when someone sang me a song saying that he was born to tell me he loves me, oh yes he did, but I know he’s now saying it to another girl already. Hehe. And when someone sang to me a song that says ‘I hate you for what you’ve done to me’, hmmmm.. I guess he meant it, and he still fucking hates me. LMAO.

More than a few guys already sang me songs. But I’m not yearning for someone to sing a song for me again. Next time, I want to be the singer. Yes I already sang songs for some people in the past, but just like my exs, I don’t also mean it. But the next time I sing a song for someone, I’ll make sure that I REALLY MEAN IT.

Not all words/songs are meant. And not everything lasts forever. aw!

THUMPED

2008-10-22T10:57:00.000+08:00

Some quotations that thumped me since yesterday:

“Avoiding something doesn’t always mean that you hate it. It could also mean that you WANT IT but you just know that it ISN’T RIGHT.”

“It’s hard when YOU MISS SOMEONE SO MUCH yet you can’t do a thing about it because HAVING THAT SPACE BETWEEN the two of you is the only way to MAKE BOTH OF YOU BETTER PEOPLE.”

Alam na. hehe. So true, so clouting.

PABLO BANILA Part 2

2008-10-21T20:02:00.000+08:00

I found him na. Thanks to Kitty or Kuting. hehe.

Check him out: http://pablobanila.com/

I can't stop laughing mula pa kanina since I saw his site. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

It's either mainis or matuwa ka sa kanya, but I really find him funny.

IDOL! The Emperor. wehe. ROFLMAO!

**ano ba to? kanina wala lang ako magawa pero ngayon tawa na ko ng tawa. haha. LMAO.

PABLO BANILA

2008-10-21T19:48:00.000+08:00

Do you know him?

I heard he is SIKAT here in multiply and everywhere.

SIKAT in what sense? hehe.

PESTE

2008-10-21T19:45:00.000+08:00

I'm really pissed off with this guy ha. Ayaw nya kong tigiiiiiiiiiilaaaaaaaaaaaaannn.

NAKAKAINIS. he's a pain in the .... neck na lang. ehe.

Uber na to as in I want to bury a bullet in his head. TSK. kagigil PESTE.

ANYWAY, I'm kind of being addicted na dito sa PLURK ha. hehe.

PHOTOS

2008-10-20T20:35:00.001+08:00

I said earlier na I would sort out my pictures tomorrow but hindi ko natiis kaya pinagtyagaan kong ayusin mga pics ko dito sa PC.

And while doing that, I stumbled upon a number of pictures. Well, actually not some, but MANY PICTURES, as in 400+ photos of US. I wasn't valiant enough to take a gaze of all the pictures but by just merely a glimpse of some of it, brought back loads of memories.

I’m not being so emotional naman or something, I think it's just a normal response to remember him, remember us.

It made me smile pa nga ee, no bitterness at all. But I just somehow felt something, I think I missed him. I just missed him, nothing more.

UPDATED ;D

2008-10-20T15:46:00.000+08:00

i already spent hours, as in lots of hours, here infront of my PC.

i checked and updated all my online accounts. (well, except sa mga account na nakalimutan ko na. ehe)

these includes:

5 YAHOO MAIL accounts

2 HOTMAIL accounts

1 ROCK account

in regards with social network sites:

2 FRIENDSTER accounts

1 MULTIPLY

1 FACEBOOK

1 TAMS UP

1 PLURK

1 CLUB1PH

I'm just having a problem with my MYSPACE, GROOVENET and RAKISTA accounts.

I'll just try to figure out the problem tomorow. And also, I'll organize my Picture Folders dito sa PC ko. Ang dami kasi and halo halo na. It's so magulo and I'm sort of nawiwindang na. hehe.

im back on the game beybii. ;D

2008-10-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

my internet's back. and so am i.

non-stop surfing na naman to. puyatan uli in front on my desktop.

and nadagdagan na naman account ko on social networks online.

i have a new account on PLURK.

so sa mga may plurk dyan, add me: maldita_milesz@yahoo.com

ehe. LURVE it.

BLOGS soon

2008-10-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

andami ko na unposted blogs. nasira kasi PC ko, kagagawa pa lang.

blogs will be posted soon. ;))

andami nang naglalabasang social network sites. tsk.

medyo madami na din ako account.

pero my friendster and multiply accounts are the most active of all. bow. ;))

One Six Eight

2008-10-07T10:40:00.000+08:00

we've been together for about 2 years now.

and after our duty in Mother Theresa, I've got the chance to know them more.

as in, deep down.

and now, i loved these guys more. i adore them, for being strong and tough.

i'm looking forward to more happy and sad moments with you guys. =]

Phillip- The survivor

Bjane- The clever

Filaine- The responsible student

Ain- The trustworthy

Tin- The confidant

Tom- The perfect gentlemen

Jof- The sensitive giant]

Marvs- The guy with the good heart

Grace- The mysterious lad

Nina- The funny outspoken

Pat- The strong girl

HELL weeks

2008-09-25T17:45:00.000+08:00

me and my groupmates have been experiencing HELL since last week.

and the suffering and torture is not yet over.

i think it'll be over after 1 or 2 weeks from now.

whew!

i'm tired.

I WANT REST. complete rest.

i feel like i'm going to give up na. hak.

STRESS.

pimples. eyebugs. few hours of sleep. no rest. tired hands, minds, body and soul!

darn it.

but despite all of this, smile lang. CARRY lang. haha.

sabi nga ni Sir, thermometer VS thermostat.

Risks and Mistakes

2008-09-03T08:30:00.000+08:00

August 16, 2008

Earlier I was having a conversation with a close friend of mine and I just realized some things.

In life, we should take risks. But before doing anything, we should think first. Think hard. We should be wise enough to know what risks we should take and what risks we should not take because sometimes there are no risks- just wrong moves. So we should learn to distinguish one from another.

And we should take time to reflect things. The good and the bad. Let’s figure out what lead us to such things. Omit the bad and focus on the good stuffs, so that we would not make the same mistakes again. Because if we do, it just shows that we did not learn anything from it.

Trials are created for us to learn, not to repeat the same mistakes we committed.

After our conversation, I know my friend got annoyed at me. I know I may be a little harsh, but sometimes, that’s how we learn. I was just concern, because I love that friend so much.

THINGS I WANT TO DO

2008-09-01T17:57:00.000+08:00

After reading the book Veronika decides to die, I realized that like her, I also don’t want to live in an everyday routine. I want to do a lot of things. I want to experience a lot of things. I want to live my dreams.

So now, I want to set my goals. I always wanted to write this down but it’s only now that I realized that this is a very important activity. You have to set your goals so that it would be like a reminder for you to work hard and reach for it. It’s like a motivation. People know what they want but some don’t have the drive to reach for it because they are not motivated enough.

And now, the following are the things that I want to do or the things that I want to accomplish:

First, I’ll continue serving God inside the church that I have strong faith to.

Apart from that, I’ll also use my energy to dedicate myself to what people at my age should be doing-studying. I can’t promise to be the best student but I promise to work harder. For my parents and for my own sake.

About seven months from now, I will graduate and have a Bachelor of Science in Nursing. And months after that, I’ll pass the Local Board Exam.

I’ll have my voice lessons inside the church. I want to go back to our church choir and sing praises to Him.

I’ll work in a nice hospital where I can gain experience and be a GOOD nurse.

I’ll enroll in a dance class. I always had the passion for dancing since I was in Grade school. I used to dance on school events. I think it’s a good way of an outlet and also, a good exercise.

I’ll travel, perhaps work abroad. I want to go to places I’ve never been to.

I want to build a house for my parents. I want to help my family and make them proud, especially my dad, mom and uncle. I want to build a business for my mom, she always wanted that.

I want to renew my talent in drawing. FYI, I was an editorial cartoonist in our school paper back in grade school. I want to continue writing (or typing). I want to enhance my writing and speaking skills. The Journalism world is another frustration for me since I used to write on our school papers in grade school and until high school.

I want to continue learning; if possible, I want to earn a Master’s Degree in Nursing.

I’ll meet not the perfect guy, but the guy who God reserved for me. In God’s time.

I want to have a family of my own, I’ll raise our children and teach them and make them know God.

I’ll have my own house and my own car. And I’ll put up my own business.

I want to do a lot of things; I just can’t put it all down at once.

And years from now, if God allows it, I’ll pass the BAR EXAM.

I want to live life. I want to serve God. I want to touch lives. I want to be happily contented.

I did not write these things down because pinangungunahan ko si God sa plans nya for me, but rather, this serves as my motivation and to drive me to reach for it.

Dream big and reach for it.

At the end of the day, it still depends on God’s plans for us.

Let Go, Let God. He’s the guide, He’s the way. Just walk His path and you’ll end up where you should be.

And whatever His plans are, it’s a blessing, appreciate it and you’ll realize that it’s the right thing for you. If it’s meant to be, it will be.

AUGUST 10, 2008

Love, Sex and Marriage

2008-08-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

The Bible stated in Hebrews 13:4, “Honor marriage and guard the sacredness of sexual intimacy between wife and husband”. I also agree with what the writer Mr. Joshua Harris said in his book that you have no claim to a person’s body when you’re not married to that person, therefore, no right to sexual intimacy. I personally believe that God created sexuality for the sacredness of marriage, therefore, too much physical intimacy or sexual intimacy outside marriage is a mortal sin.

In life, if we want to attain righteousness, we have to destroy sin at its early stage. We must do our best to do what is right and avoid committing sins. The Bible said in Colossians 3:5, “Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immortality, impurity, lust, evil desires”. I can remember what I have read outside a certain mall while riding a bus from a concert, it stated, “What part of ‘thou shall not’ did you not understand?”. I would just like to quote another verse from II Timothy 2:22, “Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart”.

Love is a feeling of warm personal attachment or passionate affection for another person. It can be expressed in a hundred if not thousand ways other than sex. My dear friends, I’m asking you to please to your best to not destroy your relationship with God, because a life without God, is empty and without Him, we are nothing. Obedience to God is easy if we only know how to listen. In Proverbs 14:2 it is written, “Those who follow the right path fear the Lord; those who take the wrong path despise Him.”

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This is my speech in our Speech class. wehe.

very bad sad news

2008-08-19T16:39:00.000+08:00

August 9, 2008

while i was happily listening to my ipos, i received a text neddage from a friend and it contained a very bad sad news.

her mom passed away cause of breast CA. my happy mood disappeared instantly!

i know she's in a very difficult situation. OMGosh, i can't imagine myself in her situation. *pray hard then knock on wood*

i just hope she recovers soon so she can come to class na, Gossh i miss her.

Please pray for her mom or atleast pray for my friend so she can have enough strength to surpass this trial.

MY FRIEND, i'm here for you. the WHOLE TAE GANG is here for you. I LOVE YOU. mwa!

hope to see you soon.

RIHANNA went to the ZOO.

2008-08-19T16:16:00.000+08:00

August 19, 2008

Kanina, nagpa-DL ako ng songs for my ipod. And these two songs are included. They are both old songs but I just feel like listening to it these past few days and I don’t know until when.

P.S. I'm Still Not Over You

Rihanna

[Verse 1]
What's up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put'em in a letter
But it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you you
Still not over you you

[Verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that still remain since you been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you you

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothing to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you you
Still not over you yea

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no...
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Oohh...
Still not over you
And how I have tried to forget you

[Chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get know better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I'v got nothing to lose
Hope you to hear from soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Pain In My Heart by Zoo

First verse

Here I am alone in this empty room and l

et my mind just fly me to the end

thoughts of you still linger in my memory

wondering why my life is not that fair

Refrain:

I could still recall

those memories of you

the joy and all the laughter

the love that we've been through

oh, i cant believe you're gone

Chorus:

I don't want to remember the things we used to do

all the things that remind me of you,

I don't want to hear those songs,

those songs we used to sing

cause i don't wanna feel the pain in my heart

Second Verse:

Talking to myself for reasons i can't find

findin' out why everything went wrong

tears falling down my cheeks that i been trying to hold

I just don't know if could still go on

Second Refrain:

I wanted you to stay

the tears began to show

you said you care for me

but, then you had to go

and now i know you're gone

Repeat Chorus 2x

' cause i don't wanna feel,

yeah i dont wanna feel

the pain in my heart...

yun lang. puahahaha.

BOLD = emphasis --> alam na. haha.

Veronika decides to DIE

2008-08-19T16:01:00.000+08:00

August 10, 2008

I finished reading the book Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho. I found it quite boring from the first to the middle part. That’s the reason why it took me a very long time to finish it. I even read few books—IKDG, By the river Piedra and Five People…-- na isiningit ko while reading Veronika. And this afternoon, I sat down and read the book and nagulat na lang ako because natapos ko na. Yea, for me it may be quite boring to read but I can still say that it’s a good book. I’m giving it an excellent remark because it left me a very important lesson.

We all know the importance of life but not all of us posses the strong desire to live.

We all know that each day is a blessing but not all of us show appreciation of every morning that come to us.

We all know the saying ‘Live life to the fullest’ but not all of us execute it.

I want to get out of my comfort zone. Just like what my friend Jed told me a long time ago, it will help me grow and be successful.

I guess I’ll start with the simple things—from the food I eat in the canteen to the things I do. I want to try new things. I want to change my routine.

I want to live each day as if I’m Veronika, as if anytime now I’ll have a heart attack and die. I’ll live freely. I’ll do the things I want to do. I’ll be crazy, regardless of what other people think and say about me. But of course, I’d still live as righteously as I can, in accordance with the words of God.

Nobody knows when our lives will end. Even a cancer patient does not know the exact date of the termination of his life.

So appreciate each day that you still wake up, thank God for that day is another blessing.

Live like there’s no tomorrow.

Work harder.

Laugh louder.

Love deeper.

Be a better person each day.

And touch other people’s lives.

I just want to live my life and love my life.

So that when I die, I know I lived my life well and at least, I was HAPPY.

Open Mic with the DEAN

2008-08-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

August 5, 2008

The date “5” used to be a special day. But now, after a few months, it means nothing. It’s just an ordinary day. Hapon na nga nung naalala kong “five” ngayon ee.

Anyway, I had my Hepa B booster vaccine. And in fairness, ang cute ni kuya nurse sa clinic. Ehe.

Anyway, going back, we had our open mic with the DEAN. I really admire Dean Annabelle Borromeo. She never fails to inspire us and at the same time, she always makes us laugh. She shares not only her knowledge but also her funny jokes.

She also told us about Roxanne Celestial’s (perhaps most, if not all 4^th year Nursing students in FEU know her) story. And this inspired me to appreciate life, my course, God’s blessing and his plans why he put me in nursing profession. I’m determined to try and work harder.

I also noted something that the dean said:

“Nobody can tell you if how bad or good you are. It only becomes true when you believe in it and you act on it.”

The goal of FEU-IN for this batch is 3-5-90. And I know I’ll be part of that 90%.

Nursing vs Political Science

2008-08-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

July 28, 2008

Our concept in NCM is Nursing Law, Ethics and Jurisprudence. And I can’t deny the fact that I’m really enjoying the concept. Take note, the concept alone. I enjoy talking about all these stuffs like the plaintiff, defendant, witness, accomplice etc. Maybe because I really wanted to take up Law.

And I remember, just the other day (July 25), I was with my high school friends Brian. We went to UST to meet another friend, Rizza. On our way back to morayta, we were talking about our courses. He was sort of complaining on his course- Political Science. And I asked him if he’s going to take up Law and he said Yes, because his parents want him to do so. He also told me that he wanted to be a Doctor. See? It’s ironic and funny. I’m just wondering if we can just switch places. He’ll be in Nursing and I’ll be in PolSci. Ehe.

I’ve been vocal that I really don’t want Nursing at first. But nobody forced me naman to take up nursing. It’s just that I was not yet decided during that time so when my parents suggested Nursing, I did. Staying inside the Institute of Nursing is really a struggle for me. I had to overcome a lot of things from fear of blood to injections to attending to the demands of patients and the list goes on. And now, I’m in my last year, I’m still hesitant to do a lot of nursing stuffs (just like the EAST AVE issue which I do not want to elaborate). Since my first experience of being a handle in a NSD (3rd year), I started loving Nursing. Eventually, I became more passionate to it. And now, I may still be hesitant to do some nursing stuffs, but I can say that I want to be a nurse months from now.

Just like what my notebook (in Speech and Rizal) says, “Sometimes, flowers grow best in the sun. Others do well in the shade. God plants us where we grow best and gives us good persons to grow with.” I believe that the God Almighty has a purpose and reason why He put me in the Institute of Nursing in FEU. And now I’m determined to be a registered nurse. But I’m still not putting my dream to be a Lawyer behind, but for the moment, I’m dedicating myself to the career I’m in, to the Profession where God put me.

BWiiiSEET.

2008-08-12T08:24:00.000+08:00

nasira na nga PC ko.

pati ba naman PSP ko nasira din.

TSK. kainis.

ang gastoooossss. ;(

SCARLET.

2008-08-05T09:02:00.000+08:00

i cut my hair again.

the last time (last sem) that i did cut my hair, i told myself na papahaba na ko.

but then again last sunday, pumasok na lang bigla sa isip ko ang magpa-gupit and poof! short hair again.

wehehe.

suspense muna yung look, but for the FEU pips na nakakita na sakin, well you already know how i look like.

they call me SCARLET. haha.

Luckily Unlucky

2008-07-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

When I went to school, I saw my friends--Ain and Khang sa library. I didn't expect to see them because we don't have class. But I was glad because I have them to accompany me. So we worked on our assignments etc.

Then we had our dinner sa Pizza Hut. Khang and I LOVES Pizza Hut but I think masama sa loob ni Ain because she wants to eat at some other place. Hehe. 2 versus 1 Ain. I had a great time and a great dinner. Super busog.

After that, Khang and I played sa arcade sa Ever. Nilaro namin yung, I forgot the name of the game, basta I won five tokens because of that game. I was thrilled because that was the first time that I won tokens on arcade games. I remember when I was in Grade school I used to make sungkit the tokens sa SM WOF. Haha. Kaso they were closing na kaya I wasn’t able to consume all the tokens.

Anyway, I felt lucky because I had my friends to accompany me and I won tokens.

While I was on the LRT, a girl caught my attention because she has beautiful shiny black hair. And I noticed na she’s pretty. And then I suddenly realized na si Pau Diaz (ABS CBN star) pala yun. I looked at her a few seconds and I think the girl beside me noticed and she suddenly talked to me. She said “si pau yun diba? blah blah”, I said yes. When she talked to me, I smelled something dreadful, she had bad breath! So I just said “yes” and I put on my Ipod earphones to avoid conversing with her. But she didn’t stop talking to me, so as a sign of respect, I removed my left earphone and listened to her. Whenever she talks di ako humihinga so I will not smell the terrible odor. But the problem is she kept on talking to me so I practically breathed on my mouth the whole time. Exhale exhale exhale. Tsk.

Then before I went home I dropped by our church to pray. After that I rode a jeep on my way home but only a few meters after, our jeep bumped into a taxi. But it was a minor banggaan lang naman, gasgas lang actually. So unti unti bumaba na yung mga fellow passengers ko dun sa jeep. The drivers were arguing like “kasalanan mo, kita mo basag na yung churva ko, blah blah.” It was starting to cause traffic na and all the vehicles behind us where blowing their horns na to the maximum level. And then, I’m the only commuter left waiting inside the jeep. Ayokong bumaba kasi I already gave my last coins. Ee ayokong bumaba and ibayad yung bills ko. I was kind of expecting na the driver would give me back my coins. But the jeepney driver left, I think he called a police or MMDA to settle their problem. I had no choice because the usisero and usiseras passing by are all looking at me. Kaya bumaba na ko and I rode another jeep.

Wala lang, naiinis lang ako because I had to use my bills pa. tsk.

And a while ago, I was working on this collage of pictures. I was almost done then poof! ERROR. I was so pissed because I was working on that for about half or an hour na. Then I can’s find the file so I had to start all over again. And natapos ko na sya and I’m somehow happy na. wehe.

I'm so not liking her

2008-07-25T12:53:00.000+08:00

I'im so not liking this Professor. Ofcourse, I will not mention his/her name and what subject he/she is teaching.

this Professor is asking us to do a lot of things. and we've been spending 2 hours here in the e-lib looking for that damn assignment.

just like what KHANG said, he/she is like a kontrabida in a teleserye. argh.

Icon-Role Model-Hero

2008-07-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

Ang aga aga, badtrip. There was a problem with the LRT trains that why there were many stranded commuters, including me. And because of that, I was late, or absent na I guess. Nakakainis talaga. Tsk. The professor was kind of—nevermind. I mean, she’s strict with attendance that’s why I had to secure a permit or excuse slip from the Coordinators’ Office pa. Hassle! Argh. I wish I can come to class earlier tomorrow.

We had our first day of Nursing Law, Jurisprudence and Professional Ethics. The professor started the concept with reviews of past discussions in NCM101, PSTL and Nursing research and several stuffs from our AHSE days. She also did the usual first day-getting to know-expectations stuff. She asked us to state our name, where we came from, our expectations for the concept and lastly, our icon of leadership.

My classmates mentioned famous people like Mahatma Gandhi, Mother Theresa, Jose Rizal and other political figures.

When I was asked, I didn’t think hard. The first person that came to my mind is Mr. Felix Zarate, my dad.

Well, he’s really my icon, role model, and hero, whatever you want to call it.

The three characteristics that I mentioned about my dad are: God-fearing, hard-working, and was-still able to endure sacrifices for us.

He is God-fearing, though he’s oceans away, he was still able to instill into us spiritual values that are necessary in this life.

He was able to tolerate sacrifices in this life just to be a good provider. I can’t mention them all, but one most important thing is that he sacrificed being away from us to be able to offer us the things we want and need.

And lastly, he is really hard-working. Enough said, it’s obvious.

In relation to Nursing, these three characteristics are very important.

I believe that if you put GOD in the center of your life, you would be able to walk the path of righteousness, thus, you will be an upright person and righteous nurse.

In order to be a good nurse, you must be able to make some sacrifices in order to attend to your duties. And lastly, you must be hard-working, in this profession every second counts, there’s no room for errors because the lives of our patient’s are in our hands.