I hate those people who hurt the people I love. It’s just that, whenever I see them weep, my heart also cries. Whenever I witness their pain, I also feel the same way.
Whether the person is a family or a friend, the pain that other people cause them also injures me that’s why whenever I witness them hurting, it’s like I want to castigate those people that caused them pain.
Just as I hate those people who hurts my mom. Just as I hate my sister’s ex-boyfriend because I saw her cry. Just as I hate my best friend’s ex-girlfriend because she caused him trouble. Just as I hate my other best friend’s ex-boyfriend because he hurt her so. Just as I hate my friends’ exs because I saw them shed tears because of them. Just as I hate myself whenever I hurt my parents. Just as I hate myself for hurting my other exs.
I hate them. Really. I also hate my self.
But it’s actually ironic. Because I don’t feel any rage against those people who hurt me before (particularly some of my ex). I don’t actually know why. I have this attitude that even if I had a relationship that didn’t work, or even if a guy hurt me, I don’t feel any bitterness against them. Maybe because for me, even if he caused me pain, I’m still glad that somehow in my life, we crossed our paths and I was able to know him and he became a part of my life. Kaya siguro, it’s somehow easy for me accepting a failed relationship. Why it’s not that difficult for me moving on, because I look at things at the brighter side.
But sometimes, that doesn’t work for me when a friend hurts me. Yes, its easy to forgive. But when a friend truly hurts me in ways such as betraying me or breaking my trust, it’s really hard to forgive and forget. (actually, isang beses pa lang naman tong nangyayari) I haven’t been able to forgive her (London) yet, for what she did to me. But the pain and the anger was not as bad as before. Its really true that time can really heal all wounds. But just like a broken glass, we can never be friends again, just like we did before. A friend for me is very important. I treasure them so much that they’re even more important to me than a boyfriend. But minsan kasi, pag nag-pile up na yung mga kasalanan sa’yo ng isang tao, masyado ng masakit. And for me, trust is a very essential part of a relationship. kaya mapagkakatiwalaan talaga kong tao kasi ayokong gawin sakin na i-break yung trust ko. sabi nga ni abby, ang trust minsan lang binibigay, kapag nasira na, mahirap na ibalik.
Sa akin, kahit gano ka kaarte. Kahit gano ka ka- flirt. Even if you’re a bitch. Kahit gano ka ka-ingay. Or whatever. I don’t hell care.. As long as you wont do anything bad against me. As long as di mo ko aagrabyaduhin (tama ba un?). Sabi nga ‘wag mo ko sasalubungin kundi babanggain kita’ Nyaks.. WTF?? corny. haha. Lol. Live your life and ill live mine.
Hmm..what more?
To the people I hurt, sorry. ;) To those people who hurt my loved ones.. go to hell. To those people who hurt me, naah.. nevermind.
I hate those people who hurt the people I love. It’s just that, whenever I see them weep, my heart also cries. Whenever I witness their pain, I also feel the same way.
Whether the person is a family or a friend, the pain that other people cause them also injures me that’s why whenever I witness them hurting, it’s like I want to castigate those people that caused them pain.
Just as I hate those people who hurts my mom. Just as I hate my sister’s ex-boyfriend because I saw her cry. Just as I hate my best friend’s ex-girlfriend because she caused him trouble. Just as I hate my other best friend’s ex-boyfriend because he hurt her so. Just as I hate my friends’ exs because I saw them shed tears because of them. Just as I hate myself whenever I hurt my parents. Just as I hate myself for hurting my other exs.
I hate them. Really. I also hate my self.
But it’s actually ironic. Because I don’t feel any rage against those people who hurt me before (particularly some of my ex). I don’t actually know why. I have this attitude that even if I had a relationship that didn’t work, or even if a guy hurt me, I don’t feel any bitterness against them. Maybe because for me, even if he caused me pain, I’m still glad that somehow in my life, we crossed our paths and I was able to know him and he became a part of my life. Kaya siguro, it’s somehow easy for me accepting a failed relationship. Why it’s not that difficult for me moving on, because I look at things at the brighter side.
But sometimes, that doesn’t work for me when a friend hurts me. Yes, its easy to forgive. But when a friend truly hurts me in ways such as betraying me or breaking my trust, it’s really hard to forgive and forget. (actually, isang beses pa lang naman tong nangyayari) I haven’t been able to forgive her (London) yet, for what she did to me. But the pain and the anger was not as bad as before. Its really true that time can really heal all wounds. But just like a broken glass, we can never be friends again, just like we did before. A friend for me is very important. I treasure them so much that they’re even more important to me than a boyfriend. But minsan kasi, pag nag-pile up na yung mga kasalanan sa’yo ng isang tao, masyado ng masakit. And for me, trust is a very essential part of a relationship. kaya mapagkakatiwalaan talaga kong tao kasi ayokong gawin sakin na i-break yung trust ko. sabi nga ni abby, ang trust minsan lang binibigay, kapag nasira na, mahirap na ibalik.
Sa akin, kahit gano ka kaarte. Kahit gano ka ka- flirt. Even if you’re a bitch. Kahit gano ka ka-ingay. Or whatever. I don’t hell care.. As long as you wont do anything bad against me. As long as di mo ko aagrabyaduhin (tama ba un?). Sabi nga ‘wag mo ko sasalubungin kundi babanggain kita’ Nyaks.. WTF?? corny. haha. Lol. Live your life and ill live mine.
Hmm..what more?
To the people I hurt, sorry. ;) To those people who hurt my loved ones.. go to hell. To those people who hurt me, naah.. nevermind.
I've been blogging since 2004 and I'm stillexisting.
I’m a rocker, and a party girl.
I’m sad, also I’m happy.
I’m a good friend; along with I’m your worst enemy.
I cheat, yet I love.
I hurt other people, thus I always get broken.
I’m weak, but I’m strong.
I’m nice, yet I’m mean.
I suck, but I rock!
this is MILES, this is ME..
I AM...
delusional. stupid at times. a jerk sometimes. slightly sensitive. a brat. short-tempered. used to getting what I want, if I don’t, I’m furious. the event organizer. mysterious to some. a snob to many. trustworthy. a good friend. already quit drinking. don’t smoke. complicated.
My Names:
Miles -- to most people I know.
Darla -- to my group mates. you know the movie Finding Nemo? Brat -- to my group mates and to some friends.
Zeb, Bez, Best -- to my Best friends.
Otso -- to some of my High School Friends.
Ning -- to my Dad.
LOVES
pizza
pasta
tacos
nachos
grilled squid
coffee
chocolate cakes
sisig
ONE TREE HILL
Gossip Girl
HATES siopao
diningding paksiw shell fish
pineapple
DESIRES
TOP the BOARD EXAM because of HIS help update: I didn't top, but I passed it. Of course, because of His help.
new phone from Kuya Z. update: I have a new phone. Thank you Kuya Z.
meet new people
attend gym class
get a temporary good-paying job
update: I have a not-so-temporary, not-so-good paying job.
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Hi There! I'm MILES, a future REGISTERED NURSE. Random Thoughts of a registered nurse, a friend, a daughter, a music lover, a party-goer and a servant of God. Any similarity to someone else's blog post is purely a coincidence.
where did i go wrong?
