While I was on my way home, I passed by a murky street, only one street light is on. Whilst I was in close proximity to that light, it suddenly turned off. Total darkness. I was looking straight ahead, but I saw nothing. I heard nothing; I couldn’t hear even the music from my ipod. I wanted to shout, but not a sound comes out. I felt so alone.
I have lots of friends. Close friends. Best friends. Real friends. But there would really be a point in your life when you would be on your own, and all you have is yourself. I’m strong; my friends know that, because the years of pain notwithstanding, I manage to wear a smile day by day and continue living. But it is in actuality true that when no one is around you, that is the point in time that your emotions would emerge.
I don’t desire to talk about it anymore, because every time I verbalize the words, I feel the pain. And also, I don’t want my friends to be involved in my misery any longer. As much as I need them, sometimes I’d rather be unaided in this battle. I’ve been suffering for years, and from time to time I think that I’m already used to the pain. But whenever I think of it, every time I try to talk about it, the neglected lesion is scratched again. The numbness turns into a burning sensation again.
After minutes of walking in the darkness, I saw a little glow. Slowly, it became vivid; it became evident that it was coming from the street light meters away. Yes, I was never alone, He’s there. And I know that there is still hope.
While I was on my way home, I passed by a murky street, only one street light is on. Whilst I was in close proximity to that light, it suddenly turned off. Total darkness. I was looking straight ahead, but I saw nothing. I heard nothing; I couldn’t hear even the music from my ipod. I wanted to shout, but not a sound comes out. I felt so alone.
I have lots of friends. Close friends. Best friends. Real friends. But there would really be a point in your life when you would be on your own, and all you have is yourself. I’m strong; my friends know that, because the years of pain notwithstanding, I manage to wear a smile day by day and continue living. But it is in actuality true that when no one is around you, that is the point in time that your emotions would emerge.
I don’t desire to talk about it anymore, because every time I verbalize the words, I feel the pain. And also, I don’t want my friends to be involved in my misery any longer. As much as I need them, sometimes I’d rather be unaided in this battle. I’ve been suffering for years, and from time to time I think that I’m already used to the pain. But whenever I think of it, every time I try to talk about it, the neglected lesion is scratched again. The numbness turns into a burning sensation again.
After minutes of walking in the darkness, I saw a little glow. Slowly, it became vivid; it became evident that it was coming from the street light meters away. Yes, I was never alone, He’s there. And I know that there is still hope.
I've been blogging since 2004 and I'm stillexisting.
I’m a rocker, and a party girl.
I’m sad, also I’m happy.
I’m a good friend; along with I’m your worst enemy.
I cheat, yet I love.
I hurt other people, thus I always get broken.
I’m weak, but I’m strong.
I’m nice, yet I’m mean.
I suck, but I rock!
this is MILES, this is ME..
I AM...
delusional. stupid at times. a jerk sometimes. slightly sensitive. a brat. short-tempered. used to getting what I want, if I don’t, I’m furious. the event organizer. mysterious to some. a snob to many. trustworthy. a good friend. already quit drinking. don’t smoke. complicated.
My Names:
Miles -- to most people I know.
Darla -- to my group mates. you know the movie Finding Nemo? Brat -- to my group mates and to some friends.
Zeb, Bez, Best -- to my Best friends.
Otso -- to some of my High School Friends.
Ning -- to my Dad.
LOVES
pizza
pasta
tacos
nachos
grilled squid
coffee
chocolate cakes
sisig
ONE TREE HILL
Gossip Girl
HATES siopao
diningding paksiw shell fish
pineapple
DESIRES
TOP the BOARD EXAM because of HIS help update: I didn't top, but I passed it. Of course, because of His help.
new phone from Kuya Z. update: I have a new phone. Thank you Kuya Z.
meet new people
attend gym class
get a temporary good-paying job
update: I have a not-so-temporary, not-so-good paying job.
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Hi There! I'm MILES, a future REGISTERED NURSE. Random Thoughts of a registered nurse, a friend, a daughter, a music lover, a party-goer and a servant of God. Any similarity to someone else's blog post is purely a coincidence.
I did not lose the pain, I just got used to it
