Death is inevitable. I've seen many of it. In the form of the elderly, children, and innocent infants. There were times when they aggressively fight for that one life, but that one life just ends. There were times when they simply give up and just sign DNR, but that one soul keeps on holding on. There are some who get hold of the opportunity to have anticipatory grieving. But for some, it comes to them instantly like a thief in the night. No matter how or when it comes, it doesn't depend on how aggressive or faint-hearted they are, because whatever choice they make, whatever interventions we do, it's all up to Him.
And today, on November 1st, I've seen another one.
I realized that I was not able to blog for a YEAR. Now looking back at those 12 months, here are some few updates..
After that last post about the famous ONDOY, I've been busy with trainings concerning my Profession. I did volunteer a bit for Red Cross to help the Ondoy victims. I've been a bum for 3 more months then I got accepted as a nurse trainee. I did work hard and after few months, I eventually became a staff nurse. Until now, I'm still working there.
Ever since I started working, I felt like I've been sluggish. I still manage to hang out with my family and friends but I spend most of my time sleeping and taking rest at home, which is not who I am. I've been close to temptations and married to stress. Life, as it is, became more complicated. You ask if I'm happy with the job? I can't give you the definite answer. But if you ask if I hate it? I'd say no.
Family life had been different. My dad and brother came home from abroad for good. It feels good that we are almost complete here at home, but I guess the many years of being apart affects the reationship. But we are, generally happy.
Love? I still have them, those guys who you can call 'suitors', but .. yes, BUTS. And I've had this 'something-that-maybe-doesn't-mean-anything' with someone. It ended just before it started. No regrets, somehow glad it happened.
Each day has a blessing. The day itself is. Those 12 months were. But looking back, I know and feel that something's lacking.
The past 12 months had been diverse. Life outside the academe, as I've said, is way more complicated. But that's just the way it is, we have to live with it. Be thankful for each day, for another year. Live life, love life.
I have been consistently complaining about my monotony, about getting tired of being a bum. Last June, I was training on a certain call center in Ortigas. But on my 4th night, I quit because I had to attend an important event. But no regrets at all, besides, we heard bad stuffs about that company.
Since that training, I’ve been receiving calls from different call centers. Apparently my friends have been referring me but I’ve been ignoring those calls. I chose to just remain at home, watching TV, surfing the net, spending time with friends, attending church and enjoying my vacation. And just last Saturday, the long wait for the Board Exam result is over. And I’m delighted with the result.
Just this morning, I received another call from a call center. And I passed the initial (phone) interview. Tssss.. Although my English is poor. And I’m scheduled for another exam. But I’ve decided not to go to their office in Libis tomorrow. Why? First, my mom, sister and I have plans on visiting our relatives in Pampanga tomorrow. And I’ve been dying to smell fresh air. Second reason is laziness. Oo, tinatamad pa rin akong mag-apply! And third is I’m still in doubt if what do I really want to do with my life.
Last month, I told myself na if I get hired in a call center, I would grab it, work there for months. Then try my luck sa Nursing after earning money sa Call center industry. But now na RN na ko, parang I suddenly changed my mind. I have goals and plans in my life na of course, I want to achieve. And I don’t want to waste time. But I am still confused if where to start.
Masteral? Trainings? NCLEX, IELTS etc? Apply? And sa totoo lang, I’m hell scared. Of what? Of working! That would be my first time to be fully ‘independent’ and just the thought of it scares the hell out of me. I know kaya ko yun, but I know that it will be awfully difficult for me. Nakakagana isipin ang mga pangarap mo, pero pag tinamaan ka na ng katamaran, ay peste. Hehe.
As of now, asikasuhin ko muna oath taking. Then after that, yun na. Any advices from you guys? Lalo yung mga nasa workforce na?
Death is inevitable. I've seen many of it. In the form of the elderly, children, and innocent infants. There were times when they aggressively fight for that one life, but that one life just ends. There were times when they simply give up and just sign DNR, but that one soul keeps on holding on. There are some who get hold of the opportunity to have anticipatory grieving. But for some, it comes to them instantly like a thief in the night. No matter how or when it comes, it doesn't depend on how aggressive or faint-hearted they are, because whatever choice they make, whatever interventions we do, it's all up to Him.
And today, on November 1st, I've seen another one.
I realized that I was not able to blog for a YEAR. Now looking back at those 12 months, here are some few updates..
After that last post about the famous ONDOY, I've been busy with trainings concerning my Profession. I did volunteer a bit for Red Cross to help the Ondoy victims. I've been a bum for 3 more months then I got accepted as a nurse trainee. I did work hard and after few months, I eventually became a staff nurse. Until now, I'm still working there.
Ever since I started working, I felt like I've been sluggish. I still manage to hang out with my family and friends but I spend most of my time sleeping and taking rest at home, which is not who I am. I've been close to temptations and married to stress. Life, as it is, became more complicated. You ask if I'm happy with the job? I can't give you the definite answer. But if you ask if I hate it? I'd say no.
Family life had been different. My dad and brother came home from abroad for good. It feels good that we are almost complete here at home, but I guess the many years of being apart affects the reationship. But we are, generally happy.
Love? I still have them, those guys who you can call 'suitors', but .. yes, BUTS. And I've had this 'something-that-maybe-doesn't-mean-anything' with someone. It ended just before it started. No regrets, somehow glad it happened.
Each day has a blessing. The day itself is. Those 12 months were. But looking back, I know and feel that something's lacking.
The past 12 months had been diverse. Life outside the academe, as I've said, is way more complicated. But that's just the way it is, we have to live with it. Be thankful for each day, for another year. Live life, love life.
I have been consistently complaining about my monotony, about getting tired of being a bum. Last June, I was training on a certain call center in Ortigas. But on my 4th night, I quit because I had to attend an important event. But no regrets at all, besides, we heard bad stuffs about that company.
Since that training, I’ve been receiving calls from different call centers. Apparently my friends have been referring me but I’ve been ignoring those calls. I chose to just remain at home, watching TV, surfing the net, spending time with friends, attending church and enjoying my vacation. And just last Saturday, the long wait for the Board Exam result is over. And I’m delighted with the result.
Just this morning, I received another call from a call center. And I passed the initial (phone) interview. Tssss.. Although my English is poor. And I’m scheduled for another exam. But I’ve decided not to go to their office in Libis tomorrow. Why? First, my mom, sister and I have plans on visiting our relatives in Pampanga tomorrow. And I’ve been dying to smell fresh air. Second reason is laziness. Oo, tinatamad pa rin akong mag-apply! And third is I’m still in doubt if what do I really want to do with my life.
Last month, I told myself na if I get hired in a call center, I would grab it, work there for months. Then try my luck sa Nursing after earning money sa Call center industry. But now na RN na ko, parang I suddenly changed my mind. I have goals and plans in my life na of course, I want to achieve. And I don’t want to waste time. But I am still confused if where to start.
Masteral? Trainings? NCLEX, IELTS etc? Apply? And sa totoo lang, I’m hell scared. Of what? Of working! That would be my first time to be fully ‘independent’ and just the thought of it scares the hell out of me. I know kaya ko yun, but I know that it will be awfully difficult for me. Nakakagana isipin ang mga pangarap mo, pero pag tinamaan ka na ng katamaran, ay peste. Hehe.
As of now, asikasuhin ko muna oath taking. Then after that, yun na. Any advices from you guys? Lalo yung mga nasa workforce na?
I've been blogging since 2004 and I'm stillexisting.
I’m a rocker, and a party girl.
I’m sad, also I’m happy.
I’m a good friend; along with I’m your worst enemy.
I cheat, yet I love.
I hurt other people, thus I always get broken.
I’m weak, but I’m strong.
I’m nice, yet I’m mean.
I suck, but I rock!
this is MILES, this is ME..
I AM...
delusional. stupid at times. a jerk sometimes. slightly sensitive. a brat. short-tempered. used to getting what I want, if I don’t, I’m furious. the event organizer. mysterious to some. a snob to many. trustworthy. a good friend. already quit drinking. don’t smoke. complicated.
My Names:
Miles -- to most people I know.
Darla -- to my group mates. you know the movie Finding Nemo? Brat -- to my group mates and to some friends.
Zeb, Bez, Best -- to my Best friends.
Otso -- to some of my High School Friends.
Ning -- to my Dad.
LOVES
pizza
pasta
tacos
nachos
grilled squid
coffee
chocolate cakes
sisig
ONE TREE HILL
Gossip Girl
HATES siopao
diningding paksiw shell fish
pineapple
DESIRES
TOP the BOARD EXAM because of HIS help update: I didn't top, but I passed it. Of course, because of His help.
new phone from Kuya Z. update: I have a new phone. Thank you Kuya Z.
meet new people
attend gym class
get a temporary good-paying job
update: I have a not-so-temporary, not-so-good paying job.
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Hi There! I'm MILES, a future REGISTERED NURSE. Random Thoughts of a registered nurse, a friend, a daughter, a music lover, a party-goer and a servant of God. Any similarity to someone else's blog post is purely a coincidence.
November 1's LIGHT
